Im missing your laugh, how do you plead?
I really hope your as happy as your pretending. I dont think i should go up for break anymore. I dont think anything im doing is even making sense. Maybe its the low self esteem the ex brought. But i dont think im going to find hapiness for awhile.
I wanna believe so bad that what he tells me is true
I want to so bad that i cry about it
It would make me so happy to look into someones eyes and they genuwinly wanted me to be happy.
i cant be selfless anymore. but I cant be selfish.
what am i going to do?
heres the choice:
(a) go to mass
(b) stay in daytona
(c) move to alaska and live in a hut.
....yeah so i dont know wtf im going to do.
and i dont care anymore. because noone sat and took the time to actually see that i have some real issues and that noone will be able to fix them.
i dont like my past
and i dont like my present
and i dont like my future so far.
i dont like anything about myself or anyone else
i think humans are disgusting and degrading
and noone and nothing can change that, except for the pureness of someone heart. and so far ive learned that peoples hearts lie just as much as their heads do.
:( im tired of not knowing what to do.
my heart says go to mass but my head says , " no no no , your going to get hurt people are all the same"
no matter what i do, no matter what people think of me, no matter how pretty , thin or blonde i can TRY and make myself.. IM NOT HAPPY
im not good enough
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
and i want to be the best and im not the best, im second liked, im always a second away .. and that second feels like a million years.
what should i do? what am i going to do ? what are people going to do ?
what is this world going to do?
is this life nothing but millions and millions of digital information that causes nothing but heart break and torture?
such a emo and cliche thing for me to say..but what is cliche except for the truth :-(
" YOUVE DONE THIS WRONG , ITS TOO FAR GONE..IVE GOT REGRET"
I wanna believe so bad that what he tells me is true
I want to so bad that i cry about it
It would make me so happy to look into someones eyes and they genuwinly wanted me to be happy.
i cant be selfless anymore. but I cant be selfish.
what am i going to do?
heres the choice:
(a) go to mass
(b) stay in daytona
(c) move to alaska and live in a hut.
....yeah so i dont know wtf im going to do.
and i dont care anymore. because noone sat and took the time to actually see that i have some real issues and that noone will be able to fix them.
i dont like my past
and i dont like my present
and i dont like my future so far.
i dont like anything about myself or anyone else
i think humans are disgusting and degrading
and noone and nothing can change that, except for the pureness of someone heart. and so far ive learned that peoples hearts lie just as much as their heads do.
:( im tired of not knowing what to do.
my heart says go to mass but my head says , " no no no , your going to get hurt people are all the same"
no matter what i do, no matter what people think of me, no matter how pretty , thin or blonde i can TRY and make myself.. IM NOT HAPPY
im not good enough
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
and i want to be the best and im not the best, im second liked, im always a second away .. and that second feels like a million years.
what should i do? what am i going to do ? what are people going to do ?
what is this world going to do?
is this life nothing but millions and millions of digital information that causes nothing but heart break and torture?
such a emo and cliche thing for me to say..but what is cliche except for the truth :-(
" YOUVE DONE THIS WRONG , ITS TOO FAR GONE..IVE GOT REGRET"