my mind is fucking crazy
i came home from school early today. i only went to one class and that was p.e.. it was only good because chris bromelsiek and i played extreme basketball. ahha it was so funny. but then i started getting really sharp pains in my stummy, so i called my mommy and complained and she made my brother take me home. and now we can safely say i have a really horrible bladder infection. im sorry if that is too much information for anyone out there actually reading this.. but its horrible and i need sympathy.
i think im still grounded. which is shitty, because sarah invited me to her birthday party this saturday and she lives two houses away from jordan. and he wants me to meet his mommy. err. his mom said this to him "Valerie is invited to sarahs party. she should come over because i want to meet her.".. soo i guess sheee wants to meet meeee. im scared, because i know am everything she hates. im not good enough for him.. i have been realizing this lately. im stubborn.im selfish, im jealous, im sneaky, sleazy, and way too trashy for him. he deserves so much better than this. aiodhulkjdbuhvck. i hate these moods i get in. fucking hell i hate everything right now. stevie knows what im talking about. i mean, im in such a bad mood with myself. i hate this. i hate my parents so much. i just hate a whole lot. i fucking want to be better than this. was i ever enough for him? who was i.. what did i do wrong? what the fuck is wrong with me..
i want my lip or monroe peirced. badly. i should jus do it and see what happens. im already grounded. it cant get much worse. i just fucking want to be better than this.
♥
p.s. im getting a new lj sn. its going to be absolutely friends only. rock.
i think im still grounded. which is shitty, because sarah invited me to her birthday party this saturday and she lives two houses away from jordan. and he wants me to meet his mommy. err. his mom said this to him "Valerie is invited to sarahs party. she should come over because i want to meet her.".. soo i guess sheee wants to meet meeee. im scared, because i know am everything she hates. im not good enough for him.. i have been realizing this lately. im stubborn.im selfish, im jealous, im sneaky, sleazy, and way too trashy for him. he deserves so much better than this. aiodhulkjdbuhvck. i hate these moods i get in. fucking hell i hate everything right now. stevie knows what im talking about. i mean, im in such a bad mood with myself. i hate this. i hate my parents so much. i just hate a whole lot. i fucking want to be better than this. was i ever enough for him? who was i.. what did i do wrong? what the fuck is wrong with me..
i want my lip or monroe peirced. badly. i should jus do it and see what happens. im already grounded. it cant get much worse. i just fucking want to be better than this.
♥
p.s. im getting a new lj sn. its going to be absolutely friends only. rock.