bad apple or good apple?
i had a talk with my mom today in light of recent events
i wanted to let her know that i am still on track with everything as far as work and school are concerned.
really, i just want to make sure she realizes i am not screwing around, i am actually learning and trying to make a path for myself
it is time for me to grow up, and i am working on it slowly.
although lately i have been having a tough time (let's just not talk about it anymore, k?)
i am hoping that things will settle down and my grades at the end of this school year will at least match, if not improve from last year.
sometimes i feel like no matter how hard i try i am not doing nearly enough
i am never good enough
never strong enough
never have enough time to put in all the effort i want to
and i have no way of communicating with people because i am never given the time of day
but it has finally hit the point where i have stopped caring about what everyone else thinks and have started to focus on working towards my own goals and keeping myself happy.
and in return, this year has been a lot more fun and has also been a lot more productive.
but sometimes i have had to learn things the hard way, and i hope my friends can learn from my mistakes and NOT follow in my footsteps.
::shakes head:: i am SOOOO NOT a role-model. i am the younger sibling... thank god.
.~.~.Aud.~.~.
i wanted to let her know that i am still on track with everything as far as work and school are concerned.
really, i just want to make sure she realizes i am not screwing around, i am actually learning and trying to make a path for myself
it is time for me to grow up, and i am working on it slowly.
although lately i have been having a tough time (let's just not talk about it anymore, k?)
i am hoping that things will settle down and my grades at the end of this school year will at least match, if not improve from last year.
sometimes i feel like no matter how hard i try i am not doing nearly enough
i am never good enough
never strong enough
never have enough time to put in all the effort i want to
and i have no way of communicating with people because i am never given the time of day
but it has finally hit the point where i have stopped caring about what everyone else thinks and have started to focus on working towards my own goals and keeping myself happy.
and in return, this year has been a lot more fun and has also been a lot more productive.
but sometimes i have had to learn things the hard way, and i hope my friends can learn from my mistakes and NOT follow in my footsteps.
::shakes head:: i am SOOOO NOT a role-model. i am the younger sibling... thank god.
.~.~.Aud.~.~.