gutt feelings
somehow i still feel like i keep screwing everything up
i talked to emmanuel today...
i feel bad about abandoning him and james, but i couldn't handle it because of davey
and i keep finding out more things i didn't need to know about people he's been cheating WITH, including a person who i treated as a sister who was supposed to be ben's fiance.
james also tends to make me feel depressed and bad about the way i look.
him and nick were really the only ones that screwed me up in that area...
...
at least i had a good birthday (although uneventfull)
o-yea and elliot called me... kinda hoping i wouldn't hear from him, but, in a way it was nice.
i talked to emmanuel today...
i feel bad about abandoning him and james, but i couldn't handle it because of davey
and i keep finding out more things i didn't need to know about people he's been cheating WITH, including a person who i treated as a sister who was supposed to be ben's fiance.
james also tends to make me feel depressed and bad about the way i look.
him and nick were really the only ones that screwed me up in that area...
...
at least i had a good birthday (although uneventfull)
o-yea and elliot called me... kinda hoping i wouldn't hear from him, but, in a way it was nice.