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sometimes i feel like a really crappy friend
but it's hard to try and make all of my friends happy all of the time
and i feel really horrible if i can't, or if my plans change or something
x.x
also, i really sometimes wish, not that i'm not happy or 100% in love and grateful, but i wish i could still explore
nick and i have talked multiple times about such, and decided it would not be a smart idea
because it would make our relationship more complicated and it wouldn't be worth the risk of one of us doing something stupid
::changes mind about wanting to talk about this stuff:: although it's been floating in my head a ton
sometimes i feel like i am the most oblivious person in the world
and other times, when i catch on, i almost wish i hadn't
playing stupid is 'more safe'
.~.~.Aud.~.~.
but it's hard to try and make all of my friends happy all of the time
and i feel really horrible if i can't, or if my plans change or something
x.x
also, i really sometimes wish, not that i'm not happy or 100% in love and grateful, but i wish i could still explore
nick and i have talked multiple times about such, and decided it would not be a smart idea
because it would make our relationship more complicated and it wouldn't be worth the risk of one of us doing something stupid
::changes mind about wanting to talk about this stuff:: although it's been floating in my head a ton
sometimes i feel like i am the most oblivious person in the world
and other times, when i catch on, i almost wish i hadn't
playing stupid is 'more safe'
.~.~.Aud.~.~.