Frustrated incorporated
It's been ageeeeeeeees since i blogged. My writing skills have probably gone down the drain, so you'll have to bear with my incoherent sentences and such, if ever. Anyway, for updates, school and rehearsals have withered me to bits. I don't know how many times i've felt like jumping off a cliff to just get it over with, or cried out of frustration. And i've been sick 3 times already! that's the most times i've ever gotten sick during the duration of a play. Geez. What's worse is even the less important things like PE is getting on my nerves. I am probably anything BUT the sporty type, although i try to be, so no matter how hard i try or how much my "head is in the game", i really just suck at badminton. Ugh, i'd rather go back to running even if i hated it at the start. But it's just so frustrating when you come home really late and exhausted but you have to wake up for a 7 o'clock class that you'll just feel worthless in, anyway.Grrrr.
Anyways. I've been really s-a-b-o-g lately, too. Ever since last week and that emergency sleepover stint at anina's house for our theo project that was due the next day, i've been feeling like the living dead.Seriously.Falling asleep in class (even in French! and i LOVE French!), finding deserted/unoccupied classrooms to sleep in (yes, sadly i do this. i like it there better than in the library which is too cold, and at least if i jerk in my sleep, no one's there to witness it.hahaha, i've learned from last year. Pluuus, the classroom is nearer to the bathroom and my shared locker), and even losing track if i've eaten already or not. All i know is, regardless of what time rehearsals start, from 5:30 to 9:30 pm, blueREP owns me.My lola's been telling me that she's gonna rent out my bed space already since she claims i'm hardly home! (that's jokingly, of course....at least i hope so.) There have even been times where i really felt like i couldn't do it anymore. And even if i tried my very best to do everything right so i wouldn't get reprimanded, it's just no good. FRUSTRATED has been my number one status since December. But then again, that's what everyone in theater goes through. And even though i sometimes feel like quitting, at the end of a good day of rehearsals, i remember why i'm still there in the first place. And i guess that's enough.
Oh well. this si totally out of the topic, but i just got the idea from Oli's blog, heehee! What fun,what fun :)
P.S: okay, NONE of them look like me. Harumph.