i have no more secrets, its just not healthy
i should have moved when i had the chance
i guess im gonna probably move after the
first of the year if nothing has changed
i gave up everything and lost it all
i can't believe i am so stupid to have
done this, i am so selfish to have thought
i had found something worth waking up for
apparently god thinks i do not deserve to be
happy or something, or maybe there is no god
and i just dont deserve anything
i took a leap and got what i wanted
it happened more than once and i thought i was golden
now i lay in bed and cry and wonder what i did to
have to leave empty handed once again.
i feel like the biggest loser
i'd like to think he's the one who is losing out
because the world knows that he is unhappy
or he wouldn't have come back for more
i know that everytime he would leave me
he would leave with a smile on his face
and a bed to rest easy in, knowing that
i am perfect for him and that there are
no more worries