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this is a plea...
i am more nervous than i think i've ever been, and it's really not good for me to be nervous. take all groups 3 out of the 4 times i was there: i ran bad times, my worst races, with results that just narrowly missed making it to finals- by just 1 or 2 people.
i'm having trouble typing because my hands are shaking a little bit.
so if you see this, and it's friday or saturday, please please please please please please please PLEASE call me and tell me that i'll be ok. don't talk to me about a record-breaking performance. don't talk to me about PRs. just tell me that if i do bad, it doesn't matter. i have at least one more heptathlon this season to redeem this potentially bad performance.
and you might also advise me not to kill alex, since i'm planning on using my hatred for him as motivation to do well (i'm seriously considering trying to outscore him since he's probably too "hurt" to do all of the events... yeah sure- whatever) i mean- think about it- i'll be using dangerous implements all weekend- the equivelant of a spear? a big heavy ball that could easily break or hand? shoes with pointy metal spikes in them? you can't tell me that i'm not a hazard!
oh god
so nervous
and thirsty...can't drink enough water
i don't know how i'm going to make it through class today!
i am more nervous than i think i've ever been, and it's really not good for me to be nervous. take all groups 3 out of the 4 times i was there: i ran bad times, my worst races, with results that just narrowly missed making it to finals- by just 1 or 2 people.
i'm having trouble typing because my hands are shaking a little bit.
so if you see this, and it's friday or saturday, please please please please please please please PLEASE call me and tell me that i'll be ok. don't talk to me about a record-breaking performance. don't talk to me about PRs. just tell me that if i do bad, it doesn't matter. i have at least one more heptathlon this season to redeem this potentially bad performance.
and you might also advise me not to kill alex, since i'm planning on using my hatred for him as motivation to do well (i'm seriously considering trying to outscore him since he's probably too "hurt" to do all of the events... yeah sure- whatever) i mean- think about it- i'll be using dangerous implements all weekend- the equivelant of a spear? a big heavy ball that could easily break or hand? shoes with pointy metal spikes in them? you can't tell me that i'm not a hazard!
oh god
so nervous
and thirsty...can't drink enough water
i don't know how i'm going to make it through class today!