Open Window
I just got home from work and all of the windows are open in my house. It feels really nice because it is a gorgeous day outside. My mom and I are probably going to go to the park later. The best part about working today was that I got to wander around the store for about four hours. The other hour was spent in a meeting. I also won two vouchers to be used in the store and worth five bucks each for being the top March of Dimes sneaker seller. I was very surprised by that, but yeah, I'm not complaining.
Last night I went and saw the Amityville Horror with Debra, Melissa and Adam. The movie itself sucked, but Ryan Reynolds was freaking hot. He kept taking off his shirt and I kept drooling on myself. We all went and got food afterwards; our waiter sucked. I think the evening would have gone better if Adam hadn't been there. He always seems to put a damper on things with his presence. I will admit, though, I myself was not in the best of moods, having been visited by my special friend that day. I tried to be pleasant, but I don't think it worked very well. Sorry to Debra and Melissa for not being my usual chipper self. I am glad that Melissa is doing ok, though. I never really liked her and Mike together, but it wasn't my place to say so, primarily because I didn't have a good enough reason for them not to be together.
I am really angry at myself. I'm angry because I am starting to like Steven even more than I did before, and I know that I am going to pay for it in a few months when he moves back home. I can't help myself, though. I am a sucker for romance, and I am craving some romance in my life. I thoroughly enjoy the hours that we spend talking to each other on the phone at night. I like the fact that when I think about him, it makes me smile. I like spending time with him. I like him. Maybe I should just say screw it and go for something physical with him. I would not want to have a long distance relationship with him, but maybe I should follow Jen's advice and use him for training wheels. It sucks that nothing happened with Jeff, too. I guess he wasn't "feeling me" anymore, but that doesn't give him the right to lie to me and ditch me. Bastard.
My dad is outside trying to fix my car window. It has been broken now for about a week. My window will roll down, but then it won't roll back up. My dad put a new motor in and now it works, but it squeaks. I don't know if he is just going to leave it like that or what, but I didn't want to push anything with him right now because he was having a tough time with it.
I believe I have nothing left to say right now. I shall leave you with a quote:
To find oneself jilted is a blow to one's pride. One must do one's best to forget it and if one doesn't succeed, at least one must pretend to. - Moliere
Last night I went and saw the Amityville Horror with Debra, Melissa and Adam. The movie itself sucked, but Ryan Reynolds was freaking hot. He kept taking off his shirt and I kept drooling on myself. We all went and got food afterwards; our waiter sucked. I think the evening would have gone better if Adam hadn't been there. He always seems to put a damper on things with his presence. I will admit, though, I myself was not in the best of moods, having been visited by my special friend that day. I tried to be pleasant, but I don't think it worked very well. Sorry to Debra and Melissa for not being my usual chipper self. I am glad that Melissa is doing ok, though. I never really liked her and Mike together, but it wasn't my place to say so, primarily because I didn't have a good enough reason for them not to be together.
I am really angry at myself. I'm angry because I am starting to like Steven even more than I did before, and I know that I am going to pay for it in a few months when he moves back home. I can't help myself, though. I am a sucker for romance, and I am craving some romance in my life. I thoroughly enjoy the hours that we spend talking to each other on the phone at night. I like the fact that when I think about him, it makes me smile. I like spending time with him. I like him. Maybe I should just say screw it and go for something physical with him. I would not want to have a long distance relationship with him, but maybe I should follow Jen's advice and use him for training wheels. It sucks that nothing happened with Jeff, too. I guess he wasn't "feeling me" anymore, but that doesn't give him the right to lie to me and ditch me. Bastard.
My dad is outside trying to fix my car window. It has been broken now for about a week. My window will roll down, but then it won't roll back up. My dad put a new motor in and now it works, but it squeaks. I don't know if he is just going to leave it like that or what, but I didn't want to push anything with him right now because he was having a tough time with it.
I believe I have nothing left to say right now. I shall leave you with a quote:
To find oneself jilted is a blow to one's pride. One must do one's best to forget it and if one doesn't succeed, at least one must pretend to. - Moliere