Scared
I have this huge problem admitting when I'm afraid. It makes me feel weak, and I hate that feeling. But I'm really afraid of a lot of things right now, which admitting this is a HUGE step for me. I'm having surgery Thursday. I'm scared. I've never had surgery before, even though I've been pretty sick my entire life. It shouldn't be a big thing hopefully only 4 little incisions, but if its inflamed they will have to cut me from one side to the other...NO!. I'm scared about being put under, b/c while I have had my wisdom teeth cut out, I was awake for that....don't suggest it, by the way. Something just doesn't feel right. I don't want to have the surgery really, but I also don't want to have to deal with this kind of pain the rest of my life. So, Thursday it is. The other things are a bit harder to talk about. We'll see how it all goes I guess. I've just turned it over to God, which is about the only thing I can do about it.