I miss my friends....
I remember how much I loathed my last semester at BSC, but I had good reason, right? I had outgrown the place, but I miss it terribly now. It was so weird not having to go to rush practice or to go live in SSC. I miss living in the house with Katie, Kelsey, and Apryl. I def don't miss the loud obnoxious people though. I was really sad to move out of the house when I did, but I didn't really feel like I had a choice. I had become accustomed to sleep and I remembered how little of that I got when I lived with that group over the summer. I didn't go back for rush, I think it would have hurt a little. I would have felt like an outsider looking in on a group to which I used to belong...or at least thats how I rationalized it. I wish I had gone now. I wish I had done a lot of things different looking back. I wish I had spent more time with friends. I wish I had been more involved with my chapter my last semester. I wish I had gone to everyone's weddings this summer. I wish I had done a lot of things, but too late. What I miss most is walking into the cafe and knowing that one of your sisters would be there somewhere to talk. I miss lunch with Anna and Claire. Claire always cracked me up.
I am glad to not be at BSC, but it feels so odd not to be. Maybe when I start grad school next fall I won't feel so out of place. I kind of wish I had started this fall, but I was so burned out on school that the thought of going back at all just made me feel sick. After working for pennies, well its not really pennies its $14/hr. which is ok, but not what I want to be making, school looks better and better.
I am interviewing for a job in Pensacola next month. It's with the same company I interviewed with in Birmingham, they actually recommended me for the job. So that's promising. I'm also taking a test to work with the state. Trying to get a job with the stat is so frustrating. First you have to fill out this 6+ page application and then you have to wait for a test, then you have to take a test (which lasts for 3 hours, and if it is anything like the practice test I took, I'll be done in an hour and a half). I think it is basically to weed out the morons, which I think there has to be an easier way of doing this. But anyway the test is for a public health environmentalist, which basically goes around making sure that companies aren't putting too many heavy metals and other harmful chemcials back into our drinking water. Yeah, so at least its an important type job. I don't know when I started caring so much about the enviornment, but I'm glad I did. Don't get me wrong my motivations aren't exactly pure, more of a I need this planet to survive so I should probably stop treating it so badly kind of thing. Well, I'm at work so I should probably go.
Love you all!
I am glad to not be at BSC, but it feels so odd not to be. Maybe when I start grad school next fall I won't feel so out of place. I kind of wish I had started this fall, but I was so burned out on school that the thought of going back at all just made me feel sick. After working for pennies, well its not really pennies its $14/hr. which is ok, but not what I want to be making, school looks better and better.
I am interviewing for a job in Pensacola next month. It's with the same company I interviewed with in Birmingham, they actually recommended me for the job. So that's promising. I'm also taking a test to work with the state. Trying to get a job with the stat is so frustrating. First you have to fill out this 6+ page application and then you have to wait for a test, then you have to take a test (which lasts for 3 hours, and if it is anything like the practice test I took, I'll be done in an hour and a half). I think it is basically to weed out the morons, which I think there has to be an easier way of doing this. But anyway the test is for a public health environmentalist, which basically goes around making sure that companies aren't putting too many heavy metals and other harmful chemcials back into our drinking water. Yeah, so at least its an important type job. I don't know when I started caring so much about the enviornment, but I'm glad I did. Don't get me wrong my motivations aren't exactly pure, more of a I need this planet to survive so I should probably stop treating it so badly kind of thing. Well, I'm at work so I should probably go.
Love you all!