My granny...
After losing two grandparents, a family pet,and my best friends baby in less than six months, one would think that someone in this position would hate God, and wonder if there were a God. But oddly after the passing of my grandmother, who I absolutely adored, I feel closer to Him than I have in a long time. I feel like this is her doing. I feel like during her passing one of the last things she asked was for Him to be with me, I know she had to have. I feel comforted like I know I should not be. One of the last things she said to my dad was I love you son take care of my Dawn. We had a special relationship, she and I. Even though she is seventy years my elder, I can still remember running and playing in the yard, her building me and my sister a play house, her trying to drown us at the river (just as much as we were trying to drown each other). I was her favorite. Before she died, at least five years before she did...before she lost her eyesight, and mobility...she sat down and wrote every child and grandchild a letter telling them how important they were to her, and how much she loved them. She had picked out what she was to be buried in and each piece of clothing had been given to her by a child or grandchild and had a special importance to her. She had written this all down. She was always taking care of her family, even after her death. The letter contained all the arrangements for the funeral she wanted as well as a will of sorts. In my letter she talked about the fun we'd had and how proud of me she was. She told me how special I was to her and how special her relationship with me was. She loved me unconditionally, often times when I didn't deserve it. She told me not to worry, that Katie (my dad's sister who died when I was 4), and Big Daddy (My grandfather who died in 1956) would be there waiting on her. Of course this was written before my Pop died, so he's there too. It gives me great comfort that they are there with her, and that she is no longer in pain. I'm so thankful to God for those things, as well as His comfort and that I was blessed to have her as a Grandmother and friend. My grandmother has taught me many lessons throughout the twenty-two years I was blessed to have her. I wish I could be more like her, more caring, more loving and understanding.