The lives of the boring and sleepy
Dream #4
I can't remember most of it except that Maggie Smith was in it and the chick from Washington Square. It wasn't a very exciting dream, mostly people talking a lot and no activity; a European movie.
Even if I could remember the dream, I don't think Maggie Smith is around to help us recreate my unremembered dream for REMember so I don't think it's a problem that I can't remember the dream.
*Paging Mr. Carroll. Mr Lewis Carroll*
Okay, book problem:
I'm writing it and I think I've got the format down. It's all letters, songs and poetry and all that good stuff. It's a dab of world building on top of the story-telling aspect. This all sounds great, ya?
The issue is that as I write I can't stand it. Writing shouldn't necessarily be cake (my last icon said, "No one ever committed suicide while reading a good book, but many have tried while trying to write one"), but it definitely shouldn't make me hate the story. That's horrible. What I'm worried about is that this mode of story-telling is only good in theory or that it needs a more accomplished author. You see people who have these terrific ideas but then they just turn out to be more than the person can chew. It happens to amateur authors all the time and you see it happen in television every so often. Joss Whedon is a good example of this (to my mind).
I don't ever want people to look at my writing and say, "Good ideas but sloppy execution," or "The framework was there... if only it had been written by a different author."
To writers this feeling must be as inevitable as smelling yourself when you smell BO to make sure it isn't you. To non-writers... just feel lucky that there's one less thing to mull over in life.
Watched Washington Square the other night. What is up with the awful parents from the ages of yore? That dad was mean. I can't stand and say for certain how I'd feel after losing a beloved wife in childbirth and then having to cope with a mentally disabled kid, but I certainly hope I wouldn't say, "it's a disgrace your mother had to die to make space on this earth for you." Really? That's what you're going to say to your daughter?
Really?
I still have to watch The Queen but I think I'm going to put that off until the weekend; I've had enough historical drama for the time being. I would like to watch some really good horror but I'm too lazy and jaded to do a lot of looking. It took me hours and hours to find LHH and I can't even watch all of it in one sitting (it's not bad but you can tell it was made in the 70's fer sure).
Still debating about the book thing... I keep wanting to write a nonsense novel but I don't think I have it in me. One book I want to write is just like a Jane Austen type of deal. Social exploration/commentary, satire. Except it wouldn't be of our own society so much as a society I make up to reflect our own. Meta-satire? I don't know if you could do that or if it would even make sense to anyone but, you know... me, but I still like the idea. I kind of want to release the chapters as episodes - like a television show. I could have several different arcs but it wouldn't make me feel so pressured to keep the chapters straight. I could even do back stories and experiment with side stuff in the world if I liked. With no one around to read, who cares what I do? The working title is "The Children of Glasgow Manor."
I'm worried about all the applications and things I have to do for grad school.