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i keep saying, 'don't beat yourself down'. you never had much and never asked for less than truth ... the truth is i still live in hell, treading pools that are so shallow when i touch the bottom ... still, i reach up, although my hands hurt and aim high in a world so confined. i'd rather die with my face all torn up, wrists in handcuffs with pride than believe lies. i keep saying this time you won't be let down: you've learned to touch, to bond, to share, to act and move - to rebel. the fact is i just keep on talking blindly and you can't relate. i know the game: you act like you care when you don't.
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there is a genuine beauty/liberty in learning not to give a damn. ok, that's harsh. not to trouble one's heart with inevitable disappointment. i know the intensity of this strength is temporary and the softer sensitivities of my convictions will return, probably in the next ten minutes when i switch avail off, and if i'm honest, this 'strength' is really just self-preservation in disguise but, whatever it is, it's empowering. i'm running with it. i'm "learning to live my life with unwavering intent and in the spirit of a new romance" [modern life is war].
TO GIVE A DAMN OR NOT TO GIVE A DAMN? THAT IS THE QUESTION!
the tag thing:
1. fugazi - red medicine
2. braid - movie music vol. 1.
3. mates of state - my solo project
4. judge - bringin' it down
5. bad religion - 80-85
6. dag nasty - wig out at denkos
7. avail - one wrench
8. the explosion - flash flash flash
9. the misfits - collection I
10. jeff buckley - grace
i tag [if they're reading and/or posting]:
murray
nat
chris
adam
perth nat
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there is a genuine beauty/liberty in learning not to give a damn. ok, that's harsh. not to trouble one's heart with inevitable disappointment. i know the intensity of this strength is temporary and the softer sensitivities of my convictions will return, probably in the next ten minutes when i switch avail off, and if i'm honest, this 'strength' is really just self-preservation in disguise but, whatever it is, it's empowering. i'm running with it. i'm "learning to live my life with unwavering intent and in the spirit of a new romance" [modern life is war].
TO GIVE A DAMN OR NOT TO GIVE A DAMN? THAT IS THE QUESTION!
the tag thing:
1. fugazi - red medicine
2. braid - movie music vol. 1.
3. mates of state - my solo project
4. judge - bringin' it down
5. bad religion - 80-85
6. dag nasty - wig out at denkos
7. avail - one wrench
8. the explosion - flash flash flash
9. the misfits - collection I
10. jeff buckley - grace
i tag [if they're reading and/or posting]:
murray
nat
chris
adam
perth nat