Jun 11, 2008 13:34
So much has changed...I dated Desmond for awhile...which was an adventure in itself. Everything was great when we started off but then after Christmas...something changed and he wasn't the same. My anger became a major issue because we started to have more arguments. It's hard for me to let certain things go such as...asking me to rely on you and then you not being able to follow through. Not to mention, asking me to let you in, to trust you and then you go off and do things that break my trust for you. At times it was frustrating and insulting and looking back, I was dumb to love him so much. I let my guard down and fell for someone that in the end was not capable of returning what I needed or wanted. I've since gotten past a lot of things/issues/rejection/emotions and have started to readjust to my new life. I've come to the conclusion that it's really a blessing in disguise because if we hadn't ended our relationship now...it would have eventually occurred and there would have been a lot more pain involved. I was originally mad at myself for falling for someone that was not ready for a relationship. There was too much pain involved... Onward with bigger and better things... Boston is my ultimate goal and right now I am an employee at UTSA graduate school. I dance on weekends, drink occasionally and socialize often! I have my first apartment and I'm loving life...I don't need to depend on anyone but myself and so far it's great!
<3 norma