Thoughts of a lonely mind...

[oreosnapplejuic]

I decided to take a walk. It was a nice night and all. Who knows, maybe Id even stop by Angel Investigations to see ghost-Spike afterall.

*pulls out the card*

Should I call first? Nah. Im sure theyre there. At least someone has to be. Not like Angel can save people during the day.

*laughs a little then feels bad*So I walked and walked and

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[forever_spike]

After getting knightboy all set-up, I decided to go back to AI HQ and check on Fred. I wanted to know if she was the one who made me...real...again. Arriving there, I was totally unprepared for who I saw sitting on a staircase outside. Walking over to her, slightly in shock, I saw that it was indeed Buffy...and she was asleep. Sitting down beside her, I leaned her against me, content to just let her sleep.

[oreosnapplejuic]

I felt my body tilt to the side a bit. I thought it was just part of my dream. The one where Spike was there and everything was alright. I opened my eyes and looked at what I was leaning on. Very sleepily I said...

"It wasnt a dream"

[forever_spike]

I watched as she stirred and opened her eyes. Smiling at her, I leaned down and kissed her forehead.

"No, it ain't a dream, luv. It's me, and I'm really 'ere."

Reaching my right hand out, I took hers into mine...our fingers entwining just like the last time we were together.

"Didn't think anythin' could keep yer bloke from comin' back to ya, now did ya?"

[oreosnapplejuic]

I watched as he took my hand in his. It felt...nice. Just like I had dreamed. I sat up a bit, still leaning on him. And I smiled.

"Do you know how long I've dreamed about this happening? Only, like, a million times."

[forever_spike]

I smirked and nudged her a little.

"Only a million?" I teased.

Still smiling, I looked intently at her face, intoxicated by her.

"So what now Buffy? You're 'ere, I'm 'ere...what do we do?"

I was still in shock at seeing her here, it was too sudden. I hadn't had time to plan anything romantic yet...

[oreosnapplejuic]

I smiled and was waking up more.

"Well, I lost count after a million."

"So what now Buffy? You're 'ere, I'm 'ere...what do we do?"

I cuddled up next to him real close.

"This is what we do. Unless you have a better idea."

No matter how hard that stair was, it felt comfortable with him right there.

[forever_spike]

Feeling her move closer to me, I slide my left arm around her.

"Honestly, can't think of anythin' better then this right now, luv."

Smiling at her, I kissed the top of her head. She was real...and so was I. We could finally be together...

"Ye alright Slayer?"

[oreosnapplejuic]

I nodded. I was alright. For the most part.

"I'm alright. Me and Dawn spent some time in Europe. Then we came back and moved in with Will. Got a job at a bar..you?"

I smiled and took a deep breath. God, he smelled so good.

[forever_spike]

I was slightly taken aback...she lived here?

"You...ye live 'ere? How long? I've been 'ere for quite awhile and ye've never come to see me?"

Feeling hurt that I wasn't so important to her that she wouldn't even come see me, or...

"Did ye not come see me 'cause I was a bloody Casper? Now that I'm real again, is why yer showin' up?"

[oreosnapplejuic]

I saw him get upset before, but this was more offended.

"Spike"

I sat up and put my arms around him.

"I didnt even know. I just found out a couple days ago. Dont you think I would have come alot sooner if I'd known?"

I wasnt going to let his imagination make up and answer for that.

"I would have been here every day if Id known. Cordelia told me. I freaked out."

[forever_spike]

Her words soothed my wounded soul. She hadn't known...that was why she hadn't came to see me.

"Well...I'll let it slide then Buffy."

As she mentioned Cordelia, I nodded.

"Yay Queen C. Glad to see she's finally good fer somethin'."

Looking suddenly at her with worry, my brow furrowed.

"Ye freaked? How bad? Ye alright?"

[oreosnapplejuic]

I smiled and touched his face. I still couldnt believe it. Even with him right in front of me.

"Yeah, I freaked. Remember your reaction to when Willow brought me back? Like that, only worse. Like I should have known all along, but didnt."

I saw his worry face come on and shook my head.

"Dont worry. Im alright, youre alright...we're alright."

[forever_spike]

I nodded and chuckled.

"Glad we've established that we're all alright."

I held up our entwined hands so I could see them better.

"Huh. No flames. Oh, met a bloke. Little brother type, ye'll want ta meet 'im. Oh...and there's somethin' I need to tell ya."

[oreosnapplejuic]

I smiled once more. It was hard not to when I was around him.

"Little brother type, huh?"

I laughed a little.

"What do you need to tell me?"

I was curious. We hadnt seen eachother in God knows how long...

[forever_spike]

I nodded, smiling as I thought about knightboy.

"Yeah...'cept he's older."

Turning serious, I hoped she'd understand about Court and Dru...

"I 'ave a daughter named Courtney. She's 'ere in LA and livin' by herself till Dru showed up. Long story short, Dru wanted a kid and used magic to 'ave one. Hence Courtney. She's human and an innocent. Shy as hell too. I need...I need to get her away from Dru, protect her. But I want you two to get along."

[oreosnapplejuic]

My eyes went a bit wide, even though I didnt mean for them to.

"You have a daughter since when? How long have you known about this and why havent I?"

I didnt mean to come across as...bad as I did. I calmed myself down quickly.

"When do I meet her?"