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I’ve been skipping too much school, I think that it is mostly because I fear Buffy and I fear Buffy killing me even though I never did anything.
Oz hasn’t been around very much lately, he has been over Mr. Giles’ house with Heather which is making me slightly jealous cause I miss being able to talk with my brother whenever I wanted, but things really haven’t been the same sense mom and dad died, no matter how much I try and pretend they are.
Jordy knows about what I am…well not what I am cause even I don’t really know but still, him knowing makes it easier and I don’t have to feel like I have to hide myself from him all of the time.
But he did convince me to come back to school so here I am, getting all the gossip, something about a Wicca group which made me laugh, pretty amusing really.
As I sat in class doing a free style drawing, which later I realized was of my demon I sat there and just looked it over, didn’t look anything like me…but it was me none the less.
Teacher came around saying how beautiful it was and I nodded softly “guess so” I said as she walked off then just sat back loosing myself in thought.
Then I felt it again, the warmth…no not now….I raised my hand needing to go but she wouldn’t let so I ran out and I felt it changing and I freaked running into the bathroom, full, shit! “Ariel when did you color your hair red?” I heard as I ran out and blasted into the library and jumped up over the railing hiding behind book cases as I breathed out freaked, shaking trying to make it go away but I had no control, god I hope the librarian is out to lunch.
(Giles, are to join??)
Oz hasn’t been around very much lately, he has been over Mr. Giles’ house with Heather which is making me slightly jealous cause I miss being able to talk with my brother whenever I wanted, but things really haven’t been the same sense mom and dad died, no matter how much I try and pretend they are.
Jordy knows about what I am…well not what I am cause even I don’t really know but still, him knowing makes it easier and I don’t have to feel like I have to hide myself from him all of the time.
But he did convince me to come back to school so here I am, getting all the gossip, something about a Wicca group which made me laugh, pretty amusing really.
As I sat in class doing a free style drawing, which later I realized was of my demon I sat there and just looked it over, didn’t look anything like me…but it was me none the less.
Teacher came around saying how beautiful it was and I nodded softly “guess so” I said as she walked off then just sat back loosing myself in thought.
Then I felt it again, the warmth…no not now….I raised my hand needing to go but she wouldn’t let so I ran out and I felt it changing and I freaked running into the bathroom, full, shit! “Ariel when did you color your hair red?” I heard as I ran out and blasted into the library and jumped up over the railing hiding behind book cases as I breathed out freaked, shaking trying to make it go away but I had no control, god I hope the librarian is out to lunch.
(Giles, are to join??)