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[sunnycalgirl87]

My life's like tinker toys. easily put together and fun to make or do but can fall apart and break just as easily. i am not very proud of my more recent actions. i have screwed up more in the last few days than i have in a long time...i am really sorry! what i don't understand is how i can be so stupid and selfish when i know that is not who i am or who i want to be, its like i am sitting and watching my life on tv as i make all of these stupid mistakes and i am yelling and screaming at the screen to do the right thing and think how others will be affected but there i go not listening again and making another mistake...oy! i know that the person i am on the inside would never purposely hurt anyone or any thing. i over analyze everything, that is just who i am, i also require a lot of attention which i guess gets me into trouble sometimes as well. i am done venting all of my stupidity to all of you i know that this is probably not what u wanted to hear(read) if u even read this...it doesn't really matter.

i love you all and am sorry if i hurt u in any way!