"i am healing but its taking so long"
Where to begin?
My life spun out of control, but I'm pulling myself together.
I've had the hardest past few months of my life recently.
One mental breakdown after another.
One too many sleepless nights.
One too many nights I was too tired to even pull myself under the covers.
It wasn't until last week when I went home to Asheville for two nights that I realized just how much of an emotional wreck I had become.
I'm forcing myself to slow down.
To breathe.
Although this semester has stressed me out and worn me thin, it's also included some great highlights.
One of the coolest was getting the chance to interview Hanson.
Yes, I didn't just MEET Hanson. I talked to them for over 20 minutes. Shook their hands. Made them laugh. Called Zac "Zachary" and had Taylor ask me if I was mad at him. Saw them up close and personal. Close enough to see that Zac has engravings on his wedding ring. *sigh*
I haven't really spoken to many people about what's been going on in my ol' brain...but I guess now is better than never?
I'm not graduating in May. It will be December of next year when I finally graduate.
There.
I said it.
I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I'm disappointed but then again I'm excited..I mean, to look on the bright side I will actually get to celebrate Halloween like every other SENIOR in college should! Seriously, who spends their senior year Halloween in their office? workalcoholics like me...I just hope that my last semester will give me a chance to relax. I don't like how tense I've become, how stressed and worn out I've become. I hate that I run into a friend on campus but I'm always so busy I don't have time to sit and just chit chat about life. I want that. I NEED that. I'm sick of not having it.
And as always, music keeps me sane.
DYIM #25 (very very overdue...forgive me?)
1. "Modern Nature" - Sondre Lerche and Lillian Samdal
2. "Near to you" - A Fine Frenzy
3. "Save you" - Matthew Perryman Jones
4. "Girl from Tennesee"- Needtobreathe
5. "Henrietta" - The Fratellis
I'm making it. I'm blessed. I'm thankful. I have a lot more of life to live, and I'm ready to experience it, I just have to stumble a little on the way to appreciate it. I just have to make myself, slow down.
My life spun out of control, but I'm pulling myself together.
I've had the hardest past few months of my life recently.
One mental breakdown after another.
One too many sleepless nights.
One too many nights I was too tired to even pull myself under the covers.
It wasn't until last week when I went home to Asheville for two nights that I realized just how much of an emotional wreck I had become.
I'm forcing myself to slow down.
To breathe.
Although this semester has stressed me out and worn me thin, it's also included some great highlights.
One of the coolest was getting the chance to interview Hanson.
Yes, I didn't just MEET Hanson. I talked to them for over 20 minutes. Shook their hands. Made them laugh. Called Zac "Zachary" and had Taylor ask me if I was mad at him. Saw them up close and personal. Close enough to see that Zac has engravings on his wedding ring. *sigh*
I haven't really spoken to many people about what's been going on in my ol' brain...but I guess now is better than never?
I'm not graduating in May. It will be December of next year when I finally graduate.
There.
I said it.
I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I'm disappointed but then again I'm excited..I mean, to look on the bright side I will actually get to celebrate Halloween like every other SENIOR in college should! Seriously, who spends their senior year Halloween in their office? workalcoholics like me...I just hope that my last semester will give me a chance to relax. I don't like how tense I've become, how stressed and worn out I've become. I hate that I run into a friend on campus but I'm always so busy I don't have time to sit and just chit chat about life. I want that. I NEED that. I'm sick of not having it.
And as always, music keeps me sane.
DYIM #25 (very very overdue...forgive me?)
1. "Modern Nature" - Sondre Lerche and Lillian Samdal
2. "Near to you" - A Fine Frenzy
3. "Save you" - Matthew Perryman Jones
4. "Girl from Tennesee"- Needtobreathe
5. "Henrietta" - The Fratellis
I'm making it. I'm blessed. I'm thankful. I have a lot more of life to live, and I'm ready to experience it, I just have to stumble a little on the way to appreciate it. I just have to make myself, slow down.