Ramblings
Looking at my blog and can't believe it's been 13 days since I've posted. It seems that everytime I get on the computer, I'm either chatting with friends, helping the kids with their homework or doing my own homework. It used to be that I had much more time to post. I am not one to "should" on myself, but evrytime I want to write now, it seems as though I should be studying, or cleaning house, or running errands, or...? This is not to say I feel an obligation to these things... anyone who knows me knows that I don't obligate myself to things that do not define who I am... but, they are all expressions of who I am and I am loving life ;)
It's 11:00 and I just tucked the kids in bed. I often wonder if Danny and David remember me tucking them in every night. It's funny how things like that just pop into my mind all the time. It seems as though it really never stopped... over the years you would think that one could forget alot of those things, yet when you create your life around your kids, it's not so difficult to forget. I regret nothing, except maybe the years lost... even though I spiritually know that it unfolded as it did for a reason, I do wonder about "what ifs". I'm kind of big on what ifs because of the amount I delved into quantum physics and time travel. The theory of fixed time paradox insists that what didn't happen, could never have happened because it exists fixed in space/time. However, this is in direct contradiction to the many-worlds interpretation which allows for every possible outcome to every event to exist, retaining it's own history. This means that somewhere, out there (or here, parallel universes sometimes coexist with eachother) that they never were taken from me and things unfolded differently… ahhh therein lies an interesting concept. But, I didn't start writing to go into quantum mechanics… see, this is how I get myself in trouble cause I go off on tangents and people look at me like, hunh?? (yes, like you Laura lol)
Now, I digress… Getting very excited about going up to the mountains next week for beltaine. I miss drumming around a campfire and not having a cell phone. Lying under the sun in the small creek and waking up to conch calls in the morning. I really miss being out in nature and am so excited that it's warming up so maybe some camping and rafting trips can happen. Today was one of the long days at ..school. Medford, then 30 miles away to GP and then back to Medford… seems long cause there seems to be so much packed into those couple days. Have a lot of homework to catch up on before the weekend and then it's off to the woods. Tomorrow is workout and gaming day with the boys… soooo much fun and it's such a nice break inbetween everything. A few hours to kick some alien butt :D I spent most of last weekend catching up on studying. 7 hours on Sunday (intermittently) and then found out today that we have a take home test!! Yayyyy Studying was good cause the material is really sticking this time. I love the physiology part of this term, so much better than the anatomy part. Memorizing names to things really grates on me cause I know that everyone has different names for things in other languages. My mind starts thinking that "these names aren't universal" Ya, I think too much. I was trying to explain that the other day… the thinking too much part. I tried to explain to a friend about the times when I was in school and trying to find the answer they wanted rather than the ones that were deeply accurate.
Question:
The moon revolves around the:
a. Sun
b. Moon
c. Saturn
d. Neptune
Now the answer they wanted was b. Earth. That is the answer we were supposed to give. But, of course it revolves around the sun also. It also revolves with the Milky Way because the Milky Way itself revolves, but that's not one of the answers, yet in an essay question, you can see how that could get me in trouble. Anyways, therein lies the rub. Speculation, conjecture and theories should be celebrated, not dismissed. I see the boys doing the same things now in their work (overthinking) and I just hope that they learn how to placate faster than I did.
Okay... There I go, rambling again. I need to go, just wanted to type something in here and it turned into a lecture on nothing :P ah well, maybe it's bedtime. I'm going to cut this short and I will write more later.
Blessings to all and to all a good night.
Sun
It's 11:00 and I just tucked the kids in bed. I often wonder if Danny and David remember me tucking them in every night. It's funny how things like that just pop into my mind all the time. It seems as though it really never stopped... over the years you would think that one could forget alot of those things, yet when you create your life around your kids, it's not so difficult to forget. I regret nothing, except maybe the years lost... even though I spiritually know that it unfolded as it did for a reason, I do wonder about "what ifs". I'm kind of big on what ifs because of the amount I delved into quantum physics and time travel. The theory of fixed time paradox insists that what didn't happen, could never have happened because it exists fixed in space/time. However, this is in direct contradiction to the many-worlds interpretation which allows for every possible outcome to every event to exist, retaining it's own history. This means that somewhere, out there (or here, parallel universes sometimes coexist with eachother) that they never were taken from me and things unfolded differently… ahhh therein lies an interesting concept. But, I didn't start writing to go into quantum mechanics… see, this is how I get myself in trouble cause I go off on tangents and people look at me like, hunh?? (yes, like you Laura lol)
Now, I digress… Getting very excited about going up to the mountains next week for beltaine. I miss drumming around a campfire and not having a cell phone. Lying under the sun in the small creek and waking up to conch calls in the morning. I really miss being out in nature and am so excited that it's warming up so maybe some camping and rafting trips can happen. Today was one of the long days at ..school. Medford, then 30 miles away to GP and then back to Medford… seems long cause there seems to be so much packed into those couple days. Have a lot of homework to catch up on before the weekend and then it's off to the woods. Tomorrow is workout and gaming day with the boys… soooo much fun and it's such a nice break inbetween everything. A few hours to kick some alien butt :D I spent most of last weekend catching up on studying. 7 hours on Sunday (intermittently) and then found out today that we have a take home test!! Yayyyy Studying was good cause the material is really sticking this time. I love the physiology part of this term, so much better than the anatomy part. Memorizing names to things really grates on me cause I know that everyone has different names for things in other languages. My mind starts thinking that "these names aren't universal" Ya, I think too much. I was trying to explain that the other day… the thinking too much part. I tried to explain to a friend about the times when I was in school and trying to find the answer they wanted rather than the ones that were deeply accurate.
Question:
The moon revolves around the:
a. Sun
b. Moon
c. Saturn
d. Neptune
Now the answer they wanted was b. Earth. That is the answer we were supposed to give. But, of course it revolves around the sun also. It also revolves with the Milky Way because the Milky Way itself revolves, but that's not one of the answers, yet in an essay question, you can see how that could get me in trouble. Anyways, therein lies the rub. Speculation, conjecture and theories should be celebrated, not dismissed. I see the boys doing the same things now in their work (overthinking) and I just hope that they learn how to placate faster than I did.
Okay... There I go, rambling again. I need to go, just wanted to type something in here and it turned into a lecture on nothing :P ah well, maybe it's bedtime. I'm going to cut this short and I will write more later.
Blessings to all and to all a good night.
Sun