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(( This is for whom ever is in the hotel room, I suppose Buffy included. Giles and Xander already know this, and Willow will have to be told someother time obvisouly, but this is Tara's explaination because the thread got well, confusing!))
Don't stutter, whatever you do don't stutter
" Ok, so where to begin. The last time I, as in the real me, ever saw any of you, was at Xander and Anya's wedding...er uh, well that day. I mean, Willow was doing so well...is doing so well, and I was falling in love with her all over again. But you have to understand, what she did to me, what she was becoming. I couldn't watch her die from the inside out and I definately couldn't stand there and let her fix me. I know she was changing or even changed, but there was no way I could know. I didn't know if she had has enough time to work out her addiction. I never meant to leave for so long. I never really meant to leave. I just, took a vacation really. But then I heard about Willow and what happened. I had no idea why she went dark, and to be honest, I didn't care. I couldn't see what would make her do that. I only told Giles when I left. And, like the complete idiot I am, I ignored the calls from him after Willow's tiriad. I knew he would try to ask me back or to explain. But I didn't want to hear it. I started contact with him after a long time, just to let him know I was ok. Xander found out because of the whole Giles/Xander connection. By then, I was told of the First, Sunnydale and Willow had a new life. So did I. I never realized how much I would miss you guys... how much I would miss Willow. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused. And I've missed all of you. Please, please forgive me."
I beg, I plead.
Don't stutter, whatever you do don't stutter
" Ok, so where to begin. The last time I, as in the real me, ever saw any of you, was at Xander and Anya's wedding...er uh, well that day. I mean, Willow was doing so well...is doing so well, and I was falling in love with her all over again. But you have to understand, what she did to me, what she was becoming. I couldn't watch her die from the inside out and I definately couldn't stand there and let her fix me. I know she was changing or even changed, but there was no way I could know. I didn't know if she had has enough time to work out her addiction. I never meant to leave for so long. I never really meant to leave. I just, took a vacation really. But then I heard about Willow and what happened. I had no idea why she went dark, and to be honest, I didn't care. I couldn't see what would make her do that. I only told Giles when I left. And, like the complete idiot I am, I ignored the calls from him after Willow's tiriad. I knew he would try to ask me back or to explain. But I didn't want to hear it. I started contact with him after a long time, just to let him know I was ok. Xander found out because of the whole Giles/Xander connection. By then, I was told of the First, Sunnydale and Willow had a new life. So did I. I never realized how much I would miss you guys... how much I would miss Willow. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused. And I've missed all of you. Please, please forgive me."
I beg, I plead.