ITS ALWAYS THE FUCKING SAME!
NEWS NEWS NEWS......... lets see what i have in my boring ass life thats so important to say!?
Yesterday was intresting. My brandon and I had our 3 month, which to me was alright. I enjoy being with him alot. Its different going from hating every guy to hating every guy but one. lol (if that makes any sence at all)
What i hate most out of life is: negative feelings, being insecure, feeling left out, depression, trying to make an impression and failing, the constant want for attention and always getting pushed away, feeling alone left out or hurt. Life as i know it can suck sometimes..........
Things i love out of life are: second chances, feeling important even though im really not, getting my way, the ability to get blazed off my ass and make up dance moves with my pott head homie, the feeling of love (even if its not real), possitive suprises, shiny bling bing, PUPPIES!
I sit and think sometimes, why am i here? i dont feel of importants to the world. Im not smart, im a disapointment to the ones close to me, and ive basically failed at everything in my life. i have no acomplishments and i cant think of one thing im truley good at that has an actual meaning. I want the people i love to be proud of me for once instead of wanting to disown me. and most of all i wanna be proud of myself.
<3 mE