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3 months till my birthday. i ate so much today...i made JV-and i am having battling emotions about it. on one part, i am truly heartbroken. well actually- thats mostly how i feel. the optimistic, good side of me sees an opportunity that looks like a glass thats half full. come on brain, make urself feel that one more. cast all other negativity aside. i suppose it will diminish more as days pass. when i have random reality checks, probably. i like how those are all started by myself. nobody yells at me or sits me down for serious talks. but i dont verbalize a lot either. i just have world wars in my mind sometimes. they usually work themselves out. but i must remember to remind myself that love holds no titles. jv or varsity is still volleyball. they are the same sport. i would be the same person on either team. to have a higher position wont make me a better looked upon person. well to me anyways. thats all i care about when it comes to doing things in my life. if someone is ashamed of things i do...oh well. im in it for the love.and its when pple lose sight of such passion, that things become tedious, instead of adventurous. obligatory, instead of willingful...i dont play so people will think im good. i play because its my earthly thriller. &thats all there is to it.
i am thankful for...
-my mom's devotion and support, even when she has bigger battles of her own to fight
-my cousin scott who, even tho is not in exquisite condition, is alive after that accident.
-MonaLisa-my car, whos brakes blew out in a not so dangerous collision, rather than a deathly 1
-the time i get to spend with monty, because when he holds me, im invincible.
-getting to see my best friend for 20 minutes
-my girls. each day i wonder what well say in 10 years
-100.3 WNIC FM radio station
-the mini diary on my cellular mobile
-green bean casserole
-naps during turkeyday football
-the bright sun waking me up before the alarm
-handstands. because thats my limit for tumbling-and its not even moving.
-pictures in the stars
-the ability to remember events that have changed your life and why
-God showing me grace and mercy through every breath i breathe
-back massages
-wishes*madeonStars
-moments that put me in a state of euphoria
-kisses that electrify my soul
-the ability to love easily, to see something beautiful in everyone.
-sarcasm that outwits me
-josh groban's voice
-old friends who seemed only a chapter in your life, with a beginnnig middle and end, but somehow manage to wind up in your neverending story.
-cheeze. it serves 2 purposes. one to eat and smell bad, and one to make people show their Grillz.
-randomThings
-genuine laughter
-the color green