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I cannot sleep. I went to bed like...4 hours ago and I couldn't get any sleep at all, so I killed some time writing to Katja.
I think this is exactly the hardest period of my life.
I'm not meaning the worse or saddest, I mean the harder. Too many responsibilities, too less time, too many worries.
All the things are happening to my mother are making me a bit hypochondriac + I'm afraid of my future. Everything sounds so unstable and precarious.
Anyway, I'm strong...and I know everything will be fine. But right now it could be already something to get just some sleep.
Tomorrow I have too much work to do.
A friend asked why I don't postpone the graduation. It's simple, because I don't want to. I don't want all this to have an effect on my plans. The graduation was planned for July and I'll try my best to make it. And it doesn't matter if Ju won't come, I'll have the speech alone.
Plus, again all this is having an effect on my body. It's the stress.
I'm sure I don't sleep because I'm too much worried, and I got some kind of allergic reaction on my skin. Nice, uh?!
And of course the weight. And the heat.
I just need to keep going for 2 weeks, then I'm sure everything will be a bit easier. At some point in June I'll have more time for myself. I have in mind to start going jogging or to gym.
Oh, as I mentioned in the previous post I booked the flight back for my sister, it's at the end of August. I wanna go to pick her up from the airport in Rome. Why? Because I missed her hell much this time and meeting her two hours earlier will make a difference. I think I never missed her that much ever. I'm sure I'm going to cry when I see her...bad bad bad :P
I think this is exactly the hardest period of my life.
I'm not meaning the worse or saddest, I mean the harder. Too many responsibilities, too less time, too many worries.
All the things are happening to my mother are making me a bit hypochondriac + I'm afraid of my future. Everything sounds so unstable and precarious.
Anyway, I'm strong...and I know everything will be fine. But right now it could be already something to get just some sleep.
Tomorrow I have too much work to do.
A friend asked why I don't postpone the graduation. It's simple, because I don't want to. I don't want all this to have an effect on my plans. The graduation was planned for July and I'll try my best to make it. And it doesn't matter if Ju won't come, I'll have the speech alone.
Plus, again all this is having an effect on my body. It's the stress.
I'm sure I don't sleep because I'm too much worried, and I got some kind of allergic reaction on my skin. Nice, uh?!
And of course the weight. And the heat.
I just need to keep going for 2 weeks, then I'm sure everything will be a bit easier. At some point in June I'll have more time for myself. I have in mind to start going jogging or to gym.
Oh, as I mentioned in the previous post I booked the flight back for my sister, it's at the end of August. I wanna go to pick her up from the airport in Rome. Why? Because I missed her hell much this time and meeting her two hours earlier will make a difference. I think I never missed her that much ever. I'm sure I'm going to cry when I see her...bad bad bad :P