How much do you really need people?
There are times when you wanna reach out and hold someone so tight that there's no space between you and your breathing them in so deep.
Or when you just wanna hear the sound of someone's laughter or even just to see their smile.
For example - when i picked angela up from the train station - as soon as she saw me she burst into tears - tears she'd be carefully concealing since she'd got off the train.
Some times i guess that there are people that know you so well that you know you don't have to pretend. They know all the good things - and especially all the bad things about you. And they love you anyway - and they understand why.
The people that know me know that when i'm upset - i just wanna curl up in the arms of that someone and not say a word. Just to let me lie there and to not leave me when i'm upset - that speaks more than anything you could ever say.
I don't talk about the things which upset me until i have dealt with them. I just don't have the words sometimes. My throat sticks and even though i want to tell you whats wrong - i can't.
So I write them instead - in order to help explain what my head is trying to say.
I miss that closeness - i miss the touch - the contact. When someone isn't afraid to be affectionate towards you. I miss breathing them all in.
It's funny - I crave the one thing i'm terrified of - that someone knows me so well they can almost read my mind.
Because then they can hurt me. Sometimes not even friends get close. I don't think many of my friends have ever seen me cry. There's certain places no one sees. Because i can't show it. No matter how hard i try - i can't let it out.
I can cry at any movie - but if i'm going to cry about my life - i do it alone.
I guess that i'm scared because i've seen people hurt. Sometimes i don't think relationships are mean;t to work - they're just a figment of our hopelessly romantic souls - with no place in reality.
"The world is no longer a romantic place - some of it's people still are however... Don't let the world win Ally McBeal".
Or when you just wanna hear the sound of someone's laughter or even just to see their smile.
For example - when i picked angela up from the train station - as soon as she saw me she burst into tears - tears she'd be carefully concealing since she'd got off the train.
Some times i guess that there are people that know you so well that you know you don't have to pretend. They know all the good things - and especially all the bad things about you. And they love you anyway - and they understand why.
The people that know me know that when i'm upset - i just wanna curl up in the arms of that someone and not say a word. Just to let me lie there and to not leave me when i'm upset - that speaks more than anything you could ever say.
I don't talk about the things which upset me until i have dealt with them. I just don't have the words sometimes. My throat sticks and even though i want to tell you whats wrong - i can't.
So I write them instead - in order to help explain what my head is trying to say.
I miss that closeness - i miss the touch - the contact. When someone isn't afraid to be affectionate towards you. I miss breathing them all in.
It's funny - I crave the one thing i'm terrified of - that someone knows me so well they can almost read my mind.
Because then they can hurt me. Sometimes not even friends get close. I don't think many of my friends have ever seen me cry. There's certain places no one sees. Because i can't show it. No matter how hard i try - i can't let it out.
I can cry at any movie - but if i'm going to cry about my life - i do it alone.
I guess that i'm scared because i've seen people hurt. Sometimes i don't think relationships are mean;t to work - they're just a figment of our hopelessly romantic souls - with no place in reality.
"The world is no longer a romantic place - some of it's people still are however... Don't let the world win Ally McBeal".