New beginnings.
How do you decide between two things your heart wants?
I'm going to work hard at dancing/acting for the next few years - that takes first priority - there's no discussion on that - i'm not about to let some whim ruin my life if it doesn't work out.
That sounds harsh but sometimes a thing you think is forever is just that - a thing - and it goes away. I'm not about to ruin my life over a maybe. I couldn't deal with the combined pain of losing someone i thought i was in love with and losing the dreams i've built up for so many years.
I had decided that I was going to stay single for a long time - maybe even 4 year- through my degree. The time i have to spend getting myself mentally and physically prepared for the dream - it's too much. My social life is taking a back seat.
So how can i possibly make time for a relationship - when i can barely make time for my friends?
But i'd like to be able to make that time. However i'm not a miracle worker and there's still only 7 days in a week and 24 hours in a day.
So i should say no - I should say "i'd love to but i don't have the time and I can't put in 100%" but i don't want to.
RAH - too complicated!
lora x
I'm going to work hard at dancing/acting for the next few years - that takes first priority - there's no discussion on that - i'm not about to let some whim ruin my life if it doesn't work out.
That sounds harsh but sometimes a thing you think is forever is just that - a thing - and it goes away. I'm not about to ruin my life over a maybe. I couldn't deal with the combined pain of losing someone i thought i was in love with and losing the dreams i've built up for so many years.
I had decided that I was going to stay single for a long time - maybe even 4 year- through my degree. The time i have to spend getting myself mentally and physically prepared for the dream - it's too much. My social life is taking a back seat.
So how can i possibly make time for a relationship - when i can barely make time for my friends?
But i'd like to be able to make that time. However i'm not a miracle worker and there's still only 7 days in a week and 24 hours in a day.
So i should say no - I should say "i'd love to but i don't have the time and I can't put in 100%" but i don't want to.
RAH - too complicated!
lora x