Time for an update.
Sometimes people surprise you.
People aren't always what they appear to be - and they say and do things which surprises me because i wasn't expecting it. I guess it'll teach me not to pigeon hole anyone the second i meet them.
Acting/Modelling:
Taking it's toll at the minute - it's just taking up more and more time. I don't regret what i'm doing - not one bit. But it's hard to push friends away in order to carry on with the things I have to in order to make things work long term.
Like this weekend - it's cath's birthday and they're all going to alton towers for the weekend. I couldn't afford the weekend anyway - but now i feel bad because she wants me to go down for the day but i'm in North Hampton at a shoot. Then she wants to have a meal the week later - and i'm in bloody inverness. I just feel like there's not enough hours in the day - and my sleep is getting less and less when it should be increasing.
I'm not about to give it up - just annoys me sometimes that I can't be there for everything that goes on - but i've not mastered being in two places at once.
Monday: Street Dance til 8:30
Tuesday: Salsa til 8:00
Wednesday: Yoga
Sunday: Drama Classes
Plus all the work in the meantime - sits ups and filling in forms etc. Trying to keep myself in shape.
Uni:
Although i'm not there at the min - i'm still trying to get into a routine - about 2 hours a day of work - so hopefully my degree won't be a total failure. But once i start doing some work - i realise that there's so much more to do! Why did i have to pick the subject that never ends ? Sometimes i think it'd be better to do no work - then at least i don't feel like i'm drowning in work that i'll never finish.
I could read 24/7 and still not know everything.
Plus I don't wanna do it anymore - I know that sounds stupid but it's much harder to make yourself work if you don't like what your doing. I mean the theory is interesting enough - but i don't wanna do it forever. At least with modelling and acting I love every second of it.
Friends:
These people are the saviours in my life. They listen, understand and then make me forget about all my problems - we laugh so hard all the time. Even when someone is going through a major crisis we manage to make them smile.
I am so fortunate to have such good friends who take care of me. Especially Angela, Angela, Hayley, Siobhan, Nikki, Cath, Gemma, Steve. Without them life would be so incredibly boring.
Realtionships:
I don't think i'm mean't to understand. I only know that I haven't met anyone who makes me feel anywhere near the way i did when i was with mark - and now mark doesn't even have that effect. I am well and truely single. Thats not always a bad thing - i'd like to see a boyfriend who could deal with me drivnig randomly round the country at weekends. It'd be nice i guess - but not practical or realistic.
Bit of a random update - not much dramatics - which is usually the basis for my updates - just a bit of calm and dedication has crept in which i'm kinda liking.
lora x
People aren't always what they appear to be - and they say and do things which surprises me because i wasn't expecting it. I guess it'll teach me not to pigeon hole anyone the second i meet them.
Acting/Modelling:
Taking it's toll at the minute - it's just taking up more and more time. I don't regret what i'm doing - not one bit. But it's hard to push friends away in order to carry on with the things I have to in order to make things work long term.
Like this weekend - it's cath's birthday and they're all going to alton towers for the weekend. I couldn't afford the weekend anyway - but now i feel bad because she wants me to go down for the day but i'm in North Hampton at a shoot. Then she wants to have a meal the week later - and i'm in bloody inverness. I just feel like there's not enough hours in the day - and my sleep is getting less and less when it should be increasing.
I'm not about to give it up - just annoys me sometimes that I can't be there for everything that goes on - but i've not mastered being in two places at once.
Monday: Street Dance til 8:30
Tuesday: Salsa til 8:00
Wednesday: Yoga
Sunday: Drama Classes
Plus all the work in the meantime - sits ups and filling in forms etc. Trying to keep myself in shape.
Uni:
Although i'm not there at the min - i'm still trying to get into a routine - about 2 hours a day of work - so hopefully my degree won't be a total failure. But once i start doing some work - i realise that there's so much more to do! Why did i have to pick the subject that never ends ? Sometimes i think it'd be better to do no work - then at least i don't feel like i'm drowning in work that i'll never finish.
I could read 24/7 and still not know everything.
Plus I don't wanna do it anymore - I know that sounds stupid but it's much harder to make yourself work if you don't like what your doing. I mean the theory is interesting enough - but i don't wanna do it forever. At least with modelling and acting I love every second of it.
Friends:
These people are the saviours in my life. They listen, understand and then make me forget about all my problems - we laugh so hard all the time. Even when someone is going through a major crisis we manage to make them smile.
I am so fortunate to have such good friends who take care of me. Especially Angela, Angela, Hayley, Siobhan, Nikki, Cath, Gemma, Steve. Without them life would be so incredibly boring.
Realtionships:
I don't think i'm mean't to understand. I only know that I haven't met anyone who makes me feel anywhere near the way i did when i was with mark - and now mark doesn't even have that effect. I am well and truely single. Thats not always a bad thing - i'd like to see a boyfriend who could deal with me drivnig randomly round the country at weekends. It'd be nice i guess - but not practical or realistic.
Bit of a random update - not much dramatics - which is usually the basis for my updates - just a bit of calm and dedication has crept in which i'm kinda liking.
lora x