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ok, first off, what the FUCK is up with live journal? every other time i click on something, it pops up that it cannot be displayed and i have to reload it. did someone kick a wire out or what????
i had a WEIRD dream today.... i was in my dad's old cougar (one of those big 79 models that's longer than a boat) driving on I95 with a guy. i don't know if it was allen or what, but it was a guy. so we're driving and right in the middle of the highway, there's a park. no signs, no warning, there's just no more highway, there's this park and a fence around it. so we had to stop. well, we park the car in the parking lot and start to walk around the park, which is named "arwen" after my favorite elf in lord of the rings. well, as we're walking around the park we see a church and there's this lady who looks like my stepbrother's mom (but it's not her) and she tells us that the highway continues over the hill behind the church. so we say okay and keep walking. as we're walking, we look down and see pavement under the grass. we go inside the church and meet the priest and then i split up from the guy, who i'm emotionally close to. i go back out and get the car. the next thing i know it's dark like there's storm clouds in the are and it's muddy and i'm in the car, in the passenger seat and there's no driver. the car is driving itself, like kit from knight rider. and there's a drug bust goign on in the parking lot of this church. there's this white OLDER ford LTD type car that keeps driving up behind me. i tell the cops, one of which is the jamaican police officer i work with, that i'm not involved with the drug bust and they leave me alone. i tell the car to park, but not in a muddy spot. so the car parks and i get out and go in. i go searching for my friend and i'm frantic to find him. i find him and he's now got a buzz cut and he tells me he's rethought his decision not to become a priest and that he's joining the priesthood. and apparently it's like the military, once you join, you're in.... and i become distraught and he tells me we need to go outside and talk. as we're walking out, the priest is standing in an office with a computer, and there's someone in there working on the computer. he looks at us and says "you've got until i get this mouse fixed...." implying that the paperwork hasn't been submitted yet and nothing is final. so my friend and i go outside. we head toward the park, but there's a couple in the park having a picnic, so we head toward some picnic tables over by the parking lot, outside the park's fence. as we're sitting down, i look down and there's this grotto type thing under the tables and i see bea arthur under our table, gardening. we've been discussing the situation the whole time we were walking from the church to the tables and every objection i raise, he fights back. i'm feeling hopeless. as we sit talking, i cry and he starts telling me he hasn't stopped thinking of me the whole time he was making the decision and how he didn't think he could live without me. then he suggests that i stay in his life as his secretary or something, on a friendly basis and i tell him he's nuts. and i cover my eyes with my hands and start sobbing... and he tries to pull my hands down and that's when i woke up. WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD!!!!
i don't know what this dream means. allen says it doesn't mean anything and that i need to stop eating before i go to bed, but i don't eat before i go to sleep. he said it's just my subconscious. but there's still a meaning to what's going on in my subconscious... ovbiously something strange!!!! parks in the middle of the highway. :)
i'm sitting here at work. today's been alright. i called and rescheduled my portrait. allen had a break, so he stopped by home for a few minutes. that was nice, because i was asleep when he got up, so i didn't get to see him before he left. the kitties were really sweet today. i was worried yesterday, because flora was throwing up before i came to work. but she didn't throw up any last night and she didn't today, so i think she's okay. shawnie just brought me some food.... so i'm going to go eat now... :)
i had a WEIRD dream today.... i was in my dad's old cougar (one of those big 79 models that's longer than a boat) driving on I95 with a guy. i don't know if it was allen or what, but it was a guy. so we're driving and right in the middle of the highway, there's a park. no signs, no warning, there's just no more highway, there's this park and a fence around it. so we had to stop. well, we park the car in the parking lot and start to walk around the park, which is named "arwen" after my favorite elf in lord of the rings. well, as we're walking around the park we see a church and there's this lady who looks like my stepbrother's mom (but it's not her) and she tells us that the highway continues over the hill behind the church. so we say okay and keep walking. as we're walking, we look down and see pavement under the grass. we go inside the church and meet the priest and then i split up from the guy, who i'm emotionally close to. i go back out and get the car. the next thing i know it's dark like there's storm clouds in the are and it's muddy and i'm in the car, in the passenger seat and there's no driver. the car is driving itself, like kit from knight rider. and there's a drug bust goign on in the parking lot of this church. there's this white OLDER ford LTD type car that keeps driving up behind me. i tell the cops, one of which is the jamaican police officer i work with, that i'm not involved with the drug bust and they leave me alone. i tell the car to park, but not in a muddy spot. so the car parks and i get out and go in. i go searching for my friend and i'm frantic to find him. i find him and he's now got a buzz cut and he tells me he's rethought his decision not to become a priest and that he's joining the priesthood. and apparently it's like the military, once you join, you're in.... and i become distraught and he tells me we need to go outside and talk. as we're walking out, the priest is standing in an office with a computer, and there's someone in there working on the computer. he looks at us and says "you've got until i get this mouse fixed...." implying that the paperwork hasn't been submitted yet and nothing is final. so my friend and i go outside. we head toward the park, but there's a couple in the park having a picnic, so we head toward some picnic tables over by the parking lot, outside the park's fence. as we're sitting down, i look down and there's this grotto type thing under the tables and i see bea arthur under our table, gardening. we've been discussing the situation the whole time we were walking from the church to the tables and every objection i raise, he fights back. i'm feeling hopeless. as we sit talking, i cry and he starts telling me he hasn't stopped thinking of me the whole time he was making the decision and how he didn't think he could live without me. then he suggests that i stay in his life as his secretary or something, on a friendly basis and i tell him he's nuts. and i cover my eyes with my hands and start sobbing... and he tries to pull my hands down and that's when i woke up. WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD!!!!
i don't know what this dream means. allen says it doesn't mean anything and that i need to stop eating before i go to bed, but i don't eat before i go to sleep. he said it's just my subconscious. but there's still a meaning to what's going on in my subconscious... ovbiously something strange!!!! parks in the middle of the highway. :)
i'm sitting here at work. today's been alright. i called and rescheduled my portrait. allen had a break, so he stopped by home for a few minutes. that was nice, because i was asleep when he got up, so i didn't get to see him before he left. the kitties were really sweet today. i was worried yesterday, because flora was throwing up before i came to work. but she didn't throw up any last night and she didn't today, so i think she's okay. shawnie just brought me some food.... so i'm going to go eat now... :)