motivation only gets you so far...
I am home on break, and it is the first time I have actually had so much time that the thought of graduating in May is not just one of many that come and go through the day--it stays in my mind for hours on end, and it is freaking me out.
I know that I do not want to be here nor there (that being Shepherdstown) after I graduate. I have never felt so motivated in my life. I am applying to teach in Japan, and I have decided that no one has as much motivation to get this job as I do therefore there is no way they can not give it to me. I have no other plan--no other anything. Though every time someone ask me what my backup plan is, I have now started being sassy and replying that I am going to sell my eggs to support myself until I can apply again. That gets them to shut up.
It does not even matter what happens anymore. I do not want to continue anymore schooling at all, and I will just put up with whatever happens in the end.
What else can I really do?
I know that I do not want to be here nor there (that being Shepherdstown) after I graduate. I have never felt so motivated in my life. I am applying to teach in Japan, and I have decided that no one has as much motivation to get this job as I do therefore there is no way they can not give it to me. I have no other plan--no other anything. Though every time someone ask me what my backup plan is, I have now started being sassy and replying that I am going to sell my eggs to support myself until I can apply again. That gets them to shut up.
It does not even matter what happens anymore. I do not want to continue anymore schooling at all, and I will just put up with whatever happens in the end.
What else can I really do?