when you do, you swear you will run
This morning, I was really sad.
Wasn't that poetic?
Anyway, I was more sad than usual, and I almost purchased a plane ticket. I did not even where my destination would be, but I did know it was going to be far away from everything I knew.
I hadn't felt that way in months. I never wanted to feel that way again. Of course, the feeling passed as usual and no ticket was purchased, but it did make me more aware of how much I need to leave this area after school. I don't want to be here. I don't want to keep in touch. I don't want to have any links to the past. I just want to go away forever. Forever.
Odd...I never did have it bad...why do I want to leave everything behind so much? I have known since the sixth grade that I do not belong here. I hope that the Lord will lead me in the direction of where I do belong.
My new word: schadenfreude...taking enjoyment in others' troubles...such a big word for a mean definition.
Wasn't that poetic?
Anyway, I was more sad than usual, and I almost purchased a plane ticket. I did not even where my destination would be, but I did know it was going to be far away from everything I knew.
I hadn't felt that way in months. I never wanted to feel that way again. Of course, the feeling passed as usual and no ticket was purchased, but it did make me more aware of how much I need to leave this area after school. I don't want to be here. I don't want to keep in touch. I don't want to have any links to the past. I just want to go away forever. Forever.
Odd...I never did have it bad...why do I want to leave everything behind so much? I have known since the sixth grade that I do not belong here. I hope that the Lord will lead me in the direction of where I do belong.
My new word: schadenfreude...taking enjoyment in others' troubles...such a big word for a mean definition.