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ever feel like no matter what you try, you do not succeed? ever feel like something is just a lost fucking cause. one of my good friends told me once that in building relationships back up from a fall is a lot of frustratingly (is that a real word) hard work..but this much? and is this much that i'm putting in even gonna amount to anything tahts worth it to me? its only one relationship..with one person? and yeah i've put 2 years of my life into it, but i believe there's a difference in giving up and making a smart decision.
when a person has no motivation, they will not work for a single thing. so its normal that because im not getting anything back that i dont want to work to make this good. its like..ok its like..fucking an internship. you work hard and people treat you like shit..but you dont get paid. yeah actually that is exactly what its like.
but you know then there's that part thats all..no! shuttup it will get better. you will work harder. everything is going to be fine! then the realistic side slaps the optimistic in the face and head butts him. cuz in all reality..its going to nowheresville on the last train thats liek fucking broken down and shit.
i'm being stupid. and human. i dont want to deal with a change. and i dont want to deal with the fact that this failed.
when a person has no motivation, they will not work for a single thing. so its normal that because im not getting anything back that i dont want to work to make this good. its like..ok its like..fucking an internship. you work hard and people treat you like shit..but you dont get paid. yeah actually that is exactly what its like.
but you know then there's that part thats all..no! shuttup it will get better. you will work harder. everything is going to be fine! then the realistic side slaps the optimistic in the face and head butts him. cuz in all reality..its going to nowheresville on the last train thats liek fucking broken down and shit.
i'm being stupid. and human. i dont want to deal with a change. and i dont want to deal with the fact that this failed.