they call me Mellow Yellow
so. i'm going blind. well, not really--i just wear glasses now. and can i say, i love it. they'e a pain the in the ass to keep clean, and sometimes they pinch my head.
but there is something, like a boost of confidence, a.....sense of being able to get away with anything. i feel vibrant. i feel smart. i feel sexy and daring and noticed--like everyone sees me, and they're all saying, "who's that girl?"
i don't like the fact that this is the first stop on the road of vision loss, but it was bound to happen--even my dad, Mr. 20/20 himself, has within the past few years had to succumb to spectacles.
i feel spectac-ular.
when was my last post? Christ, i've been to Disneyland with Jake and his dad (and got fried), i've started school.....school's going well. it's a lot of work but i'm already in the 5th week, so that's OK.
i just can't wait for it to start cooling down.
i want to sing in front of a lot of people. i've been wanting to more and more lately. i don't know why NOW of all times; but damnit, i know i can sing. i'm no professional, but i know i can damn well sing. and i want to show everyone. i don't know. it's weird.
and German is a wonderful language.
and i'm addicted to my iPod.
and when the sun hits my hair it looks like gold silk, and i feel like an angel and an imp and mistress of all i see and the sensual daughter of all the sky.
the lover of the wind.
and i have to smile at that, and i only know why.
i am the golden-hair surprise. the dream-weaver.
i'm a lover. I'm the girl with kaleidescope eyes. bright eyes.
i can be neither captured nor tamed
but you can set me on fire and i will burn
and laugh
and shine
and i will always think because i crave knowledge
i guess i always will
i love to be moved
how strange. how very very strange.
love you later,
~shaina
but there is something, like a boost of confidence, a.....sense of being able to get away with anything. i feel vibrant. i feel smart. i feel sexy and daring and noticed--like everyone sees me, and they're all saying, "who's that girl?"
i don't like the fact that this is the first stop on the road of vision loss, but it was bound to happen--even my dad, Mr. 20/20 himself, has within the past few years had to succumb to spectacles.
i feel spectac-ular.
when was my last post? Christ, i've been to Disneyland with Jake and his dad (and got fried), i've started school.....school's going well. it's a lot of work but i'm already in the 5th week, so that's OK.
i just can't wait for it to start cooling down.
i want to sing in front of a lot of people. i've been wanting to more and more lately. i don't know why NOW of all times; but damnit, i know i can sing. i'm no professional, but i know i can damn well sing. and i want to show everyone. i don't know. it's weird.
and German is a wonderful language.
and i'm addicted to my iPod.
and when the sun hits my hair it looks like gold silk, and i feel like an angel and an imp and mistress of all i see and the sensual daughter of all the sky.
the lover of the wind.
and i have to smile at that, and i only know why.
i am the golden-hair surprise. the dream-weaver.
i'm a lover. I'm the girl with kaleidescope eyes. bright eyes.
i can be neither captured nor tamed
but you can set me on fire and i will burn
and laugh
and shine
and i will always think because i crave knowledge
i guess i always will
i love to be moved
how strange. how very very strange.
love you later,
~shaina