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so where does self esteem/confidence come from, really.
that's what I want to know.
i hear it comes from self awareness and self acceptance and self love - that you cant feel good about yourself just based on what people say that they like about you. I mean that's nice to hear, but it doesnt really do anything for your self esteem and confidence.
so what, you have to spend hours upon hours of self introspection and analysis dealing with all your issues and defeat the urge of self deprecation in order to feel like a stable, happy, and secure person? who has time to do that? life marches on inevitably towards its end and it wont wait for a person to get their shit together.
i dont know. im in a funk lately. there's so much going on in my life all the time and i just wish that it could all just slow down long enough for me to get my bearings and balance - straighten up and fly right, feel good about myself - hell even just to like myself half of the time would be an improvement.
i have so many blessings to be thankful for. my beautiful daughter - a great husband and a lovely home provided for me to have my family in.
i have wonderful people in my life that love me and are there for me when I need someone to lean on. i should be happy with that - isnt that all you need? love. john lennon thought so, but then again someone loved him enough to shoot him in the head.
again im in a funk. maybe its illness rearing its ugly head again, maybe its all a matter of circumstance thats getting me down. i cant tell yet. then again, im not great at getting out of my head for prespective.
that's what I want to know.
i hear it comes from self awareness and self acceptance and self love - that you cant feel good about yourself just based on what people say that they like about you. I mean that's nice to hear, but it doesnt really do anything for your self esteem and confidence.
so what, you have to spend hours upon hours of self introspection and analysis dealing with all your issues and defeat the urge of self deprecation in order to feel like a stable, happy, and secure person? who has time to do that? life marches on inevitably towards its end and it wont wait for a person to get their shit together.
i dont know. im in a funk lately. there's so much going on in my life all the time and i just wish that it could all just slow down long enough for me to get my bearings and balance - straighten up and fly right, feel good about myself - hell even just to like myself half of the time would be an improvement.
i have so many blessings to be thankful for. my beautiful daughter - a great husband and a lovely home provided for me to have my family in.
i have wonderful people in my life that love me and are there for me when I need someone to lean on. i should be happy with that - isnt that all you need? love. john lennon thought so, but then again someone loved him enough to shoot him in the head.
again im in a funk. maybe its illness rearing its ugly head again, maybe its all a matter of circumstance thats getting me down. i cant tell yet. then again, im not great at getting out of my head for prespective.