ahhh computer ive missed you
so my brother has been on the comp like NON stop so thats y im not updating as much.
hmmm.... im not sure whats with me lately, ive kinda been having mood swings, like im fine or happy one minute and the next i wana cry.
i think im sick of high school, im sick of all the melodramatic shit that goes on, the conflicts over nothing that seemingly destroy peoples lives, the backstabbing, the lying, the cheeting... maybe its just this year im sick of, sick of being in this inescapable hell hole filled with sour relationships that i cant get out of.
i would say i cant wait to grow up, however my most recent experiences with the adult population restores no hope for my future, they are just as immature if not more as some of us, they are after the same things and are stuck in this circle of wanting to be our age again but having responsabilities, so in the end they end up drunk and screwed over.
i dont know who i am anymore
i just had the weirdest punk emo moody thing in my room, i ended up contemplating cutting myself and sharpying one of my fingernails black. hmmm... people think im weird, im just trying to find myself.
when did i get lost?
hmmm.... im not sure whats with me lately, ive kinda been having mood swings, like im fine or happy one minute and the next i wana cry.
i think im sick of high school, im sick of all the melodramatic shit that goes on, the conflicts over nothing that seemingly destroy peoples lives, the backstabbing, the lying, the cheeting... maybe its just this year im sick of, sick of being in this inescapable hell hole filled with sour relationships that i cant get out of.
i would say i cant wait to grow up, however my most recent experiences with the adult population restores no hope for my future, they are just as immature if not more as some of us, they are after the same things and are stuck in this circle of wanting to be our age again but having responsabilities, so in the end they end up drunk and screwed over.
i dont know who i am anymore
i just had the weirdest punk emo moody thing in my room, i ended up contemplating cutting myself and sharpying one of my fingernails black. hmmm... people think im weird, im just trying to find myself.
when did i get lost?