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So I got a call last night from Jenna saying that she was at the hospital because my roommate slit here wrist. I don't know if she was trying to kill herself or was doing it to get attention or what... Jenna said it was from school stress and being homesick...plus she wasn't taking her Zoloft which i guess is part of it too... I don't know, I hate to see her that unhappy... but then I don't know when she is happy... a majority of the time its just an act... it kills me when people i care about are unhappy... i just hate it that I can't make them happy... but I know I have no control over that... or anything really. I don't know what to do... I don't know what i should say to her... i didn't really say anything last night besides i love her...i understand that everything is stresful right now, but you have to learn to deal with things...cutting is not the answer i know this all to well... it does make you feel better in some weird way... I just never did it to the extreme that she did it...I dunno yesterday was just weird... this 45 year old guy that's a paranoid schizifrenic (sp?) wrote me a three page long letter saying how i was his girl friend and all this other crazy way too personal stuff that i did not wanna know, but he really freaked me out...
In better news... Justin and possibly Edward are coming to Jacksonville on Wednesday! yay for that! I miss Justin so much, we talked last night from the time i was in Birmingham until I got back in Jacksonville... it was nice and then not long after i got off the phone w/ him Edward called :) we hadn't really gotten to talk since Tuesday, which makes me sad... I seriously like him... Like I dunno, I just wanna spend time with him...and he doesn't have different motives for wanting to spend time with me...I like that
I'm teaching the colorguard clinic at at Cherokee County High School in April and will possibly be doing their band camp...uh.. that kinda scares me... makeing up their show!! but then again its only like 6 or less members... so i think i can do it... with Justin's help of course!
-jng
In better news... Justin and possibly Edward are coming to Jacksonville on Wednesday! yay for that! I miss Justin so much, we talked last night from the time i was in Birmingham until I got back in Jacksonville... it was nice and then not long after i got off the phone w/ him Edward called :) we hadn't really gotten to talk since Tuesday, which makes me sad... I seriously like him... Like I dunno, I just wanna spend time with him...and he doesn't have different motives for wanting to spend time with me...I like that
I'm teaching the colorguard clinic at at Cherokee County High School in April and will possibly be doing their band camp...uh.. that kinda scares me... makeing up their show!! but then again its only like 6 or less members... so i think i can do it... with Justin's help of course!
-jng