who's the adult?
the last part of this day was seriously a piece of shit. we had our first little ounce of prom drama, which i think got all worked out, i'm glad everyone was so chill about it. i was supposed to go to paul's baseball game down at the UW but plans fell through so I come home and then for no reason my mom decides she's mad at me. everything is cool now but it's times like tonight that make me seriously glad that i'm not going to live with her anymore. i've never really fought back when she makes ridiculous remarks before but tonight i was in a bad mood sorta already and i didn't want to just give her the satisfaction. ugh.
and then i was just waiting for it to cheer me up and it didn't. that's gotta be the most disappointing.
i hate how unhappy adults can be. like, married adults, and i guess even unmarried, or divorced adults. they still have the same drama only maybe worse because in a sense their time is running out or something. i never want to be like that. i refuse to ever be unhappy in a marriage. when i am 50 i still want to snuggle on the couch and sit on my husbands lap. i want to kiss in front of the kids even if it grosses them out. i never want to sleep in separate beds and use "we both snore" as an excuse. i think married couples who don't like each other is tragic, because you know they could go out and find someone that would make them happy, if not forever at least for a little while. i'm going to marry someone perfect and live happily ever after. the end.
i was going to use my free time tonight to study and/or read... but then we fought. so once again i'm left without any time. i honestly don't know when i'm going to study for government. i'm going to try i think on the car ride to spokane... wish me luck.
god damnit i am in the worst mood ever.
have fun on senior skip day everyone.
be safe.