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[sunkissedeyes]

i feel like i am just going through the motions. doing what im supossed to do without living in the moment. i wish i didnt let myself care ab stupid shit, and i wish that i cared more ab the important things. but the truth is. i dont care.i want to care that i have the potential to hurt someone, im trying to make myself care its just not working. im so selfish. dont get me wrong. i care. just not enough to stop. it feels like im standing bottomless pit and people are throwing things in, and its getting harder and harder to breathe. i dont want to be the person i was. but i think thats whats happening.
if this is a test. im definatly failing....