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its his birthday.
i wish i could detach myself, but even though i have been with other people, and havent seen him, i still get worried when i havent heard from him. i still get jealous when hes with them. but im 2faced b/c im doing the same thing. i want more than anything to lay in his arms and watch the sun set, just one last time. i know it will just remind me of how perfect he is when hes straight. and how good of a person he can be. i dont know. i miss him terribly.
Missed work yesterday b/c i was sick. i wish i would just get better. im ALWAYS sick no matter what i do.
on a better note: its 7:40 in the morning. i got woken up at 6 to go take the dog out. (my mom is freaking out about this dog) yeah and the dog is in a dead sleep and my mom wakes him up. incase he has to piss. i think he will wake up and wake me up if he has to pee. but whatever. yeah so my dog is ALREADY spoiled. he wouldnt leave me alone after he came back inside. so i couldnt go back to sleep, and now theres no point since i have to be at work at 9. i know if i go to sleep i wont wake up. yeah so i guess ill go find something to do.
i wish i could detach myself, but even though i have been with other people, and havent seen him, i still get worried when i havent heard from him. i still get jealous when hes with them. but im 2faced b/c im doing the same thing. i want more than anything to lay in his arms and watch the sun set, just one last time. i know it will just remind me of how perfect he is when hes straight. and how good of a person he can be. i dont know. i miss him terribly.
Missed work yesterday b/c i was sick. i wish i would just get better. im ALWAYS sick no matter what i do.
on a better note: its 7:40 in the morning. i got woken up at 6 to go take the dog out. (my mom is freaking out about this dog) yeah and the dog is in a dead sleep and my mom wakes him up. incase he has to piss. i think he will wake up and wake me up if he has to pee. but whatever. yeah so my dog is ALREADY spoiled. he wouldnt leave me alone after he came back inside. so i couldnt go back to sleep, and now theres no point since i have to be at work at 9. i know if i go to sleep i wont wake up. yeah so i guess ill go find something to do.