Jun 06, 2010 23:41
Thoughts on my mind.. a reflection of attitude about weight- Probably the only one I will make so pay attention! LOL
I’ve always been a big girl, actually I’m smaller now than I have ever been, just happened wasn’t really intentional, God is good. But, I do not believe in coincidences, I think everything happens for a reason, so this is what I have learned. PEOPLE ARE HORRIBLE!! Ha.. Ha.. ha.
What started this blog was that I was reflecting on the crazy things people have said and done to me, as a child primarily, some as an adult. We won’t go into gory details, I’m just stating I remember. But, I’m actually thankful, no they did not motivate me to ride my bicycle (received at the age of 6) or loose weight so the kids would stop taunting me on the playground (age: 9 from a teacher woo hoo) But, instead of it growing misery as it does with most people. It grew determination to be more than people said I would be. For some reason, society has grown a distaste for fat, as a fat girl I am suppose to be in the corner crying and depressed, living a sad little life because of my weight. I guess it’s the last frontier where we can call out differences in order to make ourselves feel better, cause racism and sexism is highly frowned upon.
But, again I am happy about it because it made me realize a lot of things at a young age. One, opinions of others really don’t matter ,what matters is what you think of yourself. Do you believe you are intelligent, beautiful and capable? Two, no matter what you do someone will always have something negative to say. If its not weight, its your hair style, if its not your hair style, its your crooked big toe. People really don’t know how to love, but that’s a different subject for another day. Three, at the end of the day, you have you and God and if you’re not happy with the most basic thing he has given you (yourself) what can you really ever be happy with in life.
Fat hating is very accepted, but i’ve seen it damage a lot of beautiful people. They are desperate to be loved so they have toxic relationships. Fat hating comes in a lot of sizes, not just obvious targets like myself, but average women do it and for what, what comes out of short changing yourself? I thank my momma everyday for saying to me, “If you can’t love yourself who can you love?” It has been the most instrumental statement in my life, and she drilled it in. But, she is absolutely right. So, I will end this by saying, develop self esteem and confidence. It comes from within by loving yourself and what God has made you to be, and live the destiny God has laid out for you. It makes you stronger and gives you focus from within.
Okay, I’m off my soap box now! Have a blessed day! Lol