*sigh*
i drove next to him the whole way home... i wonder if he saw me?
dont you hate it when you make up your mind about soemthing and then something happens and that is totally thrown out the window....
damn it why cant i just make up my mind and keep it that way?
i still dont want a boyfriend....
i tell myself im over him... im not... and you know what's sooo stupid about my whole problem... he probably doesnt even remember me, well not remember me... what am i trying to say? i bet he doesnt even care... or ever cared for that matter... and i feel stupid cause i mean well... i dunno... i fell WAY to fast for him and let my gaurd down... which was a HUGE no no.... bad heather....
i want to graduate already... i NEED to leave el paso... i really really do.
i have to get away from everything and everyone. i feel suffocated right now.
FUCK!
i need to cry... i need to scream... i need to go somewhere and be alone...
i need a hug...
no... i think im going to cry
dont you hate it when you make up your mind about soemthing and then something happens and that is totally thrown out the window....
damn it why cant i just make up my mind and keep it that way?
i still dont want a boyfriend....
i tell myself im over him... im not... and you know what's sooo stupid about my whole problem... he probably doesnt even remember me, well not remember me... what am i trying to say? i bet he doesnt even care... or ever cared for that matter... and i feel stupid cause i mean well... i dunno... i fell WAY to fast for him and let my gaurd down... which was a HUGE no no.... bad heather....
i want to graduate already... i NEED to leave el paso... i really really do.
i have to get away from everything and everyone. i feel suffocated right now.
FUCK!
i need to cry... i need to scream... i need to go somewhere and be alone...
i need a hug...
no... i think im going to cry