Contemplation
And i don't know how to tell you
Do i leave subtle hints?
or do i scream it in your face?
You see its not easy because these words are so big
they fill up my throat and cause me to gag as i try to speak
i hear the words you say
But you can't hear what im screaming in my head
And these words get caught so hard in my throat
I use them as little as possible
Its to late i know so why bother we will be apart soon right?
I don't know when our paths may cross again
But if i never see you again
ill scream at the sky each night
Screaming the pain and joy you bring me
I know im crazy everyone can see it
the depression setting in each night
But it changes
i hear your voice and sorrow goes away
i find out that i will see you later that day
and my problems are gone
Sometimes i try to fool myself thinking i like someone else
maybe i do maybe this is all untrue
but something inside me tells me this is right
i don't know why or what it is but you complete a part
not of me but of the whole
ha i can't believe it
im writing this in some sense that it will change anything
this won't make you come to me or have an attraction
no matter what people tell me i can't accept
im just another guy on a path of mediocracy
i have nothing special to offer you
and i see how much you have to offer someone
i don't deserve that much
i settle for less than what i should have because thats all i think i can have
i know what i want but i see you as out of my leauge
you the prize that cannot be won by the average
im just that chess club nerd
the science geek who watches the s pass by
i suppose.....
no why bother im leaving soon anyways and what would you want with me?
nothing special just sitting here ready to jump up if you ever need anything
somehihng i pride myself on
you need something ill be there
but if i don't know ill find out for you
(sry this is really ramely and thoughts are mixed) ~~to be continued~~
Do i leave subtle hints?
or do i scream it in your face?
You see its not easy because these words are so big
they fill up my throat and cause me to gag as i try to speak
i hear the words you say
But you can't hear what im screaming in my head
And these words get caught so hard in my throat
I use them as little as possible
Its to late i know so why bother we will be apart soon right?
I don't know when our paths may cross again
But if i never see you again
ill scream at the sky each night
Screaming the pain and joy you bring me
I know im crazy everyone can see it
the depression setting in each night
But it changes
i hear your voice and sorrow goes away
i find out that i will see you later that day
and my problems are gone
Sometimes i try to fool myself thinking i like someone else
maybe i do maybe this is all untrue
but something inside me tells me this is right
i don't know why or what it is but you complete a part
not of me but of the whole
ha i can't believe it
im writing this in some sense that it will change anything
this won't make you come to me or have an attraction
no matter what people tell me i can't accept
im just another guy on a path of mediocracy
i have nothing special to offer you
and i see how much you have to offer someone
i don't deserve that much
i settle for less than what i should have because thats all i think i can have
i know what i want but i see you as out of my leauge
you the prize that cannot be won by the average
im just that chess club nerd
the science geek who watches the s pass by
i suppose.....
no why bother im leaving soon anyways and what would you want with me?
nothing special just sitting here ready to jump up if you ever need anything
somehihng i pride myself on
you need something ill be there
but if i don't know ill find out for you
(sry this is really ramely and thoughts are mixed) ~~to be continued~~