Love Really Hurt (chapter.4)

Mar 07, 2011 20:30

Title: Love Really Hurt

Author: sunggi37

Pairing: HaeHyuk, slight Donghae-Hara

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Romance, Angst, AU

Summary: This is wrong to fall in love with someone in the same gender (sorry I’m really suck at summary)

Warning: AU, grammar error, English not my first language, attempt suicide


Hey I’m back with chapter 4. Hope you will like it ^__^

Chapter 4

Donghae POV

After I arrive at the hospital I run to the room where my mother tell me, when I already outside the room I hurriedly open it and see my mother sitting beside Hara. My mother and Hara look at the door when I open it.

“Oppa, you coming” Hara said

“Yes Hara, are you okay? Umma said that you’re faint” I said worried in my voice

“I’m okay Oppa” she said smiling at me

“Donghae, you know what?” my mother asks me

“What Umma?” I ask her

“Hara is pregnant” she said

I widening my eyes in disbelieve, “What? You’re lying Umma, we just did it two times and Hara already get pregnant?” I ask her

“Yes Oppa, I’m surprise too but the doctor said it to me earlier” Hara said to me

I go to her side and grab her hand, “Really, you’re pregnant? I will be a father soon?” I ask her and she nodded her head

I am not realizing when I hug her and kissed her lips until my mom cough.

“I’m still here Hae” she said

I release the hug and saying sorry to my mom.

“Hae, can you stay here with her? Umma must go home now” she said

“Umma, Eunhyuk is sick too and he is all alone in the house” I said

“Donghae, he just catches a cold, and Hara is pregnant with your baby now, you must be by her side” my mom said

“Yes Oppa, please don’t leave me” Hara said. I just sigh and nodded my head, “Thank you Oppa. I love you” she said hugging me

I hugged her back and release it immediately, “I have to call Eunhyuk first, I have to tell him that I can’t go home now” I said and Hara nodded her head

I go out from the room and pick my phone, searching for Eunhyuk’s number and called him. Not long after he pick up the phone.

“Hello Hae” he said

“Baby, I want to tell you that I can’t go home today. Hara don’t want me to leave her, beside Umma is going home now so she is alone now” I said

“B-But Hae, you know I am sick too and I am alone too. She is in the Hospital there was a nurse and doctor who can take care of her, but me I’m alone in the house” he said, I can hear he was sniffing now

“Hyukkie, you just catch a cold, you still can do everything alone, right?” I said to him

“I know I just catch a cold, but what if I wake up in the middle of night, I’m scared to be alone in the house Hae” he said, “What happen to Hara that you can’t leave her?” he ask me

I just stay silent, I can’t tell him now. “I can’t tell you, definite I can’t leave her now, she don’t want me to leave her” I said

“But I don’t want you to leave me too, you promise me that you will be home soon” he said. I know he was sobbing now

“Oppa, why are you so long?” I hear Hara calling me

“Sorry baby, Hara called me I have to hang up now. I love you” I said and then hung up the phone

‘Hyukkie I’m sorry I have to do this for us, just bear with it for 9 month again, after that I will divorce with Hara and I will be yours completely again’ I thought and go to Hara’s room.

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I woke up when I hear thunder voice, it was rain so hard outside, I look at Hara she still sleeping peacefully.

‘Hyukkie, he must be really scared now, he is so scared of thunder. Is he okay now’ I thought. I pick up my phone and try to call Eunhyuk. But there was no answer. I feel so worried now, last time when he hear a thunder he was so scared and crying really hard in my embrace.

‘Hyukkie I hope you’re okay’ I thought

End of Donghae POV

Eunhyuk POV

I was waking up in the middle of night when I hear a loud of thunder, I hurriedly sit up and searching for Donghae.

“Hae, Donghae . . . where are you I’m scared” I shout while crying

I have a phobia of thunder, since a kid I really scared of thunder, I still calling Donghae name when I remember that Donghae is not here, he is in the hospital with Hara. I curled and covered my body with the blanket, I cry really hard while covering my ear with my hand. I’m really scared now, “Donghae please come back” I said to my self

I try to sleep but I can’t, I still hear the thunder voice it so loud and I can hear that it rain really hard outside, “Donghae . . . I need you Hae, I really need you now” I said and sobbing so hard.

I keep crying until the rain stop, I see at the clock in the table side ‘4 am’ it already morning. I feel really tired from crying so I close my eyes and start to drip to sleep.

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I wake up when I feel sunrise on my face, I open my eyes slowly and start to get up, Donghae still haven’t come home, I don’t know what happen to Hara until she don’t want Donghae to leave her. I go to the bathroom to take a quick bath after that I go back to the bed and lay there. I know I still sick and must eat medicine but I don’t care I don’t want to eat it. I still laying on the bed when I feel dizzy, it must be because of my sickness, Donghae tell me if I’m late to eat the medicine I will feel dizzy, but I really don’t care about it. I still lay on the bed when I hear my phone ringing. I look at the caller id and it was Donghae who called me, I ignore it and didn’t want to answer Donghae’s call. Donghae keep on calling me but I still ignore him, I feel a little annoyed and I shut off my phone. I close my eyes because I feel my head dizzy again and start to drip to sleep.

*****

“Hyukkie wake up baby” I hear someone say and shake my body

I stir a bit and slowly open my eyes, I see Donghae looking at me.

“Hyukkie, wake up baby, I need to talk to you” Donghae said

I start to get up and sit on the bed, “You already home Hae” I said

“Yes baby, I have something to tell you” he said and I don’t know why but I have a bad feeling about it

“What is it Hae?” I ask him

“Hyukkie I think for this week I can’t be here with you, I just know that Hara is pregnant and she want me to accompany her for this week” he said and I widening my eyes in disbelief.

“W-What Hara is pregnant?” I ask him

“Yes Hyukkie and she said she want me to be with her this week” he said again

“B-But Hae, you promise you will be with me from now on” I said disappoint in him because he already promise that he won’t leave me again

“Hyukkie you can’t be selfish, Hara is need me now” he said

“But I need you too Hae” I shout at him tears flowing from my eyes, “You are lying, you said you will prioritizing me but the fact is different, you always choose her over me if you don’t love me again why you not choose to divorce with me” I said crying hardly

“Hyukkie, Hara is pregnant now she needs me by her side” Donghae said again

“Do you think I not need you too Hae, I was still your wife Hae. Why you never think about me even once, what on your mind now is just Hara and Hara, do you know that my heart is breaking seeing you like this” I said

“Lee Hyukjae why are you so selfish, she need me more than you. She is carrying my baby now” Donghae said, from his tone I know that he was angry now

“You are the one who selfish Hae, you never care about my heart, you never care if I was hurting or not” I said still crying, “Why are you so dense Hae, from her attitude we can know that she purposely do this to break us apart” I shout at him

“LEE HYUKJAE STOP IT, WHY YOU ALWAYS BLAME HARA FOR OUR PROBLEM, SHE IS HURTING TOO” Donghae shout back at me

I widening my eyes shock by Donghae action, this is the first time Donghae shout at me, I covered my mouth to cover my sobbing and tears are flowing hardly from my eyes.

“Why you can’t understand it, you think this is only you who is hurting, Hara too she is hurting too you know” Donghae said to me

I still stay silent when I hear Donghae’s phone ringing, I see Donghae smile when he see the caller id.

“Yes Hara” Donghae said his voice is so soft not like when he talk to me, I can’t feel my heart broken into peace seeing Donghae being soft and warm to other people, you can say that I was selfish but I really can’t take it if Donghae being warm to anyone else

“What, you want cheesecake? Okay then I will buy it on my way to the hospital” Donghae said and then hung up the phone

“I will go now, take care okay” he said and then leaves me again

He come here is just to tell me that Hara is pregnant, I think Donghae come here is to check on me because I was still sick.

“God, why you punished me like this what is my fault until you punished me like this” I said crying hardly

‘I really can’t take it anymore, maybe it would be better if I just die, I can meet my parents and I will not feel this pain again’ I thought

I walk to slowly to the kitchen, when I arrive I take a knife and hold it with my hand, I’m really scared I know it will be really hurt but I think the pain in my heart is more hurt than this.

End of Eunhyuk POV

Donghae POV

I was driving to a bakery when I remember that I leave my wallet on the table in the living room, I sigh and drive back to the house. When I arrive I feel something will happen, I get inside and go to the living room, I see my wallet is still on the table I was about to go out again when I see Eunhyuk standing in the kitchen, he was holding a knife in his hand, I widening my eyes when I see blood coming from his hand. I gasp and hurriedly go to his direction.

“Yah Lee Hyukjae what are you doing” I said and throw the knife from his hand

He already scratches his wrist and blood is coming from his hand

“Eunhyuk-ah what are you doing?” I said bring him to my embrace

“Why you stop me Hae, I want to die Hae I want to die now” he said crying really hard and I feel that Eunhyuk start to collapse

I feel really scared something bad will happen so I hurriedly carried him to my car and drove to the hospital. Once we already arrive the nurse rushed Eunhyuk to the emergency room, I waited on the waiting room while feeling afraid and guilt in the same time, I know it was my fault he being like this. Not long after the doctor come out from emergency room.

“Doctor how is he?” I ask her

“You’re lucky that you bring him on time” the doctor said smiling at me

“Can I see him now?” I ask her again

“The nurse will move him to a patient room, you can see him there” she said and then excuse her self

Not long after the nurse come out from the emergency room and bring Eunhyuk to the patient room, once we already there the nurse excuse herself. I go to Eunhyuk side and hold his hand. I can see his eyes are so fluffy. I still holding his hand when I hear my phone ringing, I look at the caller id ‘Hara’

“Hello Hara” I said when I answer the phone

“Oppa why you still not come here?” she ask me

“I will come in a while okay, wait for me” I said

“Okay then Oppa” she said and then hung up the phone

I kiss Eunhyuk palm and then go out from his room, I have to go to Hara’s room first. When I come to Hara’s room there was Hara with my mother is talking.

“Oppa, you already come, where’s my cheesecake?” she ask me

“Sorry Hara, I not buy it” I said

I see Hara pouted, “Why Oppa, I want it. The baby wants it” she said again

“Yes Hae, why you not buy her the cheesecake?” my mom ask me

“Sorry, I forgot to buy it, Eunhyuk is trying to killed his self” I said

I hear Hara gasp, “What he trying to suicide?” she ask me and I nodded my head, “So how is he now, is he okay?” she ask me

“He is okay now, but when I leave him he still unconscious” I said, “Umma, I beg you please let me stay with Eunhyuk he is so unstable and heartbroken, he really need me now” I said to my mom

“But Hara need you too, she is pregnant with your baby” my mom said

“I know that Umma, I know that. But Eunhyuk need me more. Hara have you to take care of her but Eunhyuk he is all alone” I said

“Umma, Hae oppa right, just let him be with Eunhyuk-shi. Eunhyuk-shi needs him more” Hara said

“You must thank Hara, okay then you can go to Hyukjae. I will take care of Hara” My mom said

“Thank Umma and thank you Hara” I said

After I say thank to them I hurriedly go out from the room and go to Eunhyuk’s room. When I arrived there Eunhyuk is already awake.

“Baby, what are you feel now?” I ask him but Eunhyuk just stay silent and not looking at me, “Hyukkie baby, talk to me” I said and about to hold his hand but he slap it away

I sigh and try to talk to him again, “Hyuk, I know you must be mad at me, I know you hate me now, but please don’t ignore me like this” I said trying to make him look at me, “Hyukkie please talk to me”

“Why you stop me back then Hae, why you not let me to suicide” he finally talks

“Of course I will not let you to suicide; I don’t want you to die. I love you too much to see you die” I said

“Bullshit Hae” he said

“Hyuk look at me” I said success making him face me, “I saying the truth I really love you” I said to him

“Then why you always choose Hara over me?” he ask me

“It because she carried my baby now, but still I love you more Hyukkie” I said

“I love you too Hae, but you always break my heart” he said I can see tears flowing from his beautiful eyes

“I promise I will never hurt you again, this time I really promise baby” I said and bring him to my embrace

I hug him really tight and stroking his back, “Baby promise me you will never try to suicide again” I said and I feel he nodded his head

After that I lay my body beside him in the hospital’s bed, Eunhyuk rest his head on my chest while I hug him closer to me.

“Baby, when you discharge from the Hospital let’s go to Japan to meet your uncle and our friend” I said while stroking his hair

“Okay Hae, I already miss them” he said and I hear he was yawning

“Sleep baby, you’re tired right?” I said to him

“I don’t want to Hae, if I sleep I’m afraid you will leave me” he said lowly

“No Hyuk, I will never do that again, just go to sleep okay. I’m sleepy too” I said and I feel he nodded his head

I kissed his lips before I close my eyes too and start to drip to sleep.

End of Donghae POV

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Yeeey, I’m finished with this chapter

Please no silent reader. .

Comment are highly appreciate <333

genre: au, rating: pg-13, genre: romance, fanfic: love really hurt, genre: angst, pairing: haehyuk

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