Warning: long and crazy post ahead.
There are less than 72 hours left of this class. Just really 68. 68 hours left of 18.02A and then I'll be done with it forever. And yet I can't seem to make myself study, or care, or really want to do well. I have a p-set to do, material to learn, and yet I can't seem to make myself sit down and just DO it. And yet, when I think about 68 hours, I know I can. I know that I can do this. I that I can learn it and pass it and be perfectly fine and never have to think about multivariable calculus ever again. I'll pull through somehow.
Other than that, everything here is amazing. I'm happy, stable, energized. I just got over a cough and cold that wiped me out last week and I'm ready to start off new. I'm ready to take on the world again. This IAP has been so full of learning experiences- full of hopes and disappointments and realities. I've made great new friends, re-entered the world of dating, and taken the time to just be selfish and spend some "me-time" doing whatever the hell I wanted. And it was therapeutic. After living so long trying to please other people and satisfy the rest of the world, I've settled down and begun to focus on what I need to do, and how I want to succeed.
I've added a major- political science. You probably should have seen that one coming. I've decided that while I would like to work in a lab for a couple of years, for the experience and the opportunity to really do some good research, it's not something that I want to do forever. I'm now actually considering getting into politics of some kind- lobbying or something like that- with regards to healthcare initiatives like AIDS, cancer, and other hot research topics that need support. I would like to go to grad school- I like the idea of having a PhD in biology or whatever- but it's just not something that I want to stay in. I'd rather use that knowledge somewhere else. And so I'm happy. While it means staying at MIT for the full four years, I'm beginning to think that that may not be the worst thing in the world. I'm realizing that this place has a lot to offer and a lot of really cool classes to take that I'm not oging to get anywhere else. Yes, working is nice, and I can take classes anywhere I go, but there's something exciting about the prospect of being able to take an archaeology class just for the hell of it at a place like MIT, simply because it sounds interesting.
All in all, I love it here. Everything about the city, the campus, the people, the classes (yes, even 18.02A) is exhilerating and stimulating. I guess I'm just not quite over the initial shock of really being here, really doing it, really living my dream. Honestly, I hope I never do get over it. I hope that every time I gaze out at the Boston skyline it's with wonder, and that every time I stroll through the streets it's with the assurance that I belong. I hope that every time I look up at that dome I remember respect for those who came before me, and am humbled and inspired by their acheivements.
It's been a big year. Change has been the name of the game. And now it's time to settle down. Now it's time to focus and excel doing what I love- learning. Only 68 more hours of 18.02A... :)
Other than that, everything here is amazing. I'm happy, stable, energized. I just got over a cough and cold that wiped me out last week and I'm ready to start off new. I'm ready to take on the world again. This IAP has been so full of learning experiences- full of hopes and disappointments and realities. I've made great new friends, re-entered the world of dating, and taken the time to just be selfish and spend some "me-time" doing whatever the hell I wanted. And it was therapeutic. After living so long trying to please other people and satisfy the rest of the world, I've settled down and begun to focus on what I need to do, and how I want to succeed.
I've added a major- political science. You probably should have seen that one coming. I've decided that while I would like to work in a lab for a couple of years, for the experience and the opportunity to really do some good research, it's not something that I want to do forever. I'm now actually considering getting into politics of some kind- lobbying or something like that- with regards to healthcare initiatives like AIDS, cancer, and other hot research topics that need support. I would like to go to grad school- I like the idea of having a PhD in biology or whatever- but it's just not something that I want to stay in. I'd rather use that knowledge somewhere else. And so I'm happy. While it means staying at MIT for the full four years, I'm beginning to think that that may not be the worst thing in the world. I'm realizing that this place has a lot to offer and a lot of really cool classes to take that I'm not oging to get anywhere else. Yes, working is nice, and I can take classes anywhere I go, but there's something exciting about the prospect of being able to take an archaeology class just for the hell of it at a place like MIT, simply because it sounds interesting.
All in all, I love it here. Everything about the city, the campus, the people, the classes (yes, even 18.02A) is exhilerating and stimulating. I guess I'm just not quite over the initial shock of really being here, really doing it, really living my dream. Honestly, I hope I never do get over it. I hope that every time I gaze out at the Boston skyline it's with wonder, and that every time I stroll through the streets it's with the assurance that I belong. I hope that every time I look up at that dome I remember respect for those who came before me, and am humbled and inspired by their acheivements.
It's been a big year. Change has been the name of the game. And now it's time to settle down. Now it's time to focus and excel doing what I love- learning. Only 68 more hours of 18.02A... :)