leaving town

[sunflowereyes19]

I can't believe I'm leaving tomorrow. I know that I barely had any time at home this summer, but it seems like I had none at all. I feel like I'm not ready to leave, when in reality I don't have an option. I'm nervous about the future: about the year, the house, the girls, the boy. I know this year is going to be a completely different year than the last, and to be honest I'm more excited than not about that. Just the idea, is very weird. This summer flew by, but all in all, I am happy with the way things turned out. I'm glad that old friendships were mended, and problems were solved. I'm glad that I got sick, got upset, broke down, because really, those are all things that I now can look back on, and realize, okay, I learned from that. I think I've changed a lot as a person over these past three months, and maybe thats overanalyzing and being dumb, but events have changed me into who I am. I think that I can honestly say that thats my life, events and experiences changing my outlook on life, and changing me.
I spent $122 at Target. I'm ridiculous. I have to pack, but feel like I'm going to forget something major for some reason. It's silly. I've done this already, so why am I so nervous? I guess thats not fair to say.
I'm excited about seeing everyone again though!