[one-shot] They don't know how much he means to me
Title: They don't know how much he means to me
Author: me
POV: Park Jungsu (Leeteuk)
Fandom: Super Junior
Rating: G
A/N: Leeteuks shows his appreciation for the eternal magnae.
"It's okay to be worried."
That's what he told me. But I don't believe him.
If I worry then I get into an extremely negative state.
Sometimes it's hard to get out of it.
And even then, I can only do it when he's around.
The one who told me that it's okay... he's my... I'd be lost without him.
Even if he's painstakingly neat.
And really annoying.
Even if he's high pitched and whining...
I can't live without him.
He's the only one who understands.
The only one who can pick up every single piece of me and put me back together;
And the only one who can make me a better person than I was before.
I don't give him enough credit for all that he does for me;
For us;
For Super Junior.
Our Ryeowookie...
Even if he is our "eternal magnae",
He's more of a mother to everyone than I ever could be.
Our fans...
They don't see the gentle way he consoles Sungmin after his sensitive feelings have been hurt,
They don't see the way he quietly admires Shindong's dancing (and his determination to be as good as him),
They don't hear the hysterical laughter from his lips as he interacts with Hyukjae,
They don't know all the wonderful and comforting stories he tells Donghae to ease his homesickness,
They don't feel the warmth of his hugs when he praises Kyuhyun for doing so well after the accident,
They don't notice his subtle but effective attempts to keep Kangin in line...
and his quiet giggles when he actually listens to him.
They don't see the effort he puts in to know some basic foreign words to help Siwon with his language skills,
They don't know of and could never understand the inside jokes he has with Kibum,
They don't know that he spends as much time as he can in the kitchen with Hankyung to learn how to cook so he can sometimes cook for us too,
They don't realise how early he wakes up to prepare Yesung's coffee...
or how late he stays up making him yet another cup because he can't sleep without it.
They don't see the way he lets Heechul use him as his personal make-up doll to keep his mind preoccupied from any worries he might have,
and how, when Heechul gets into a really big slump, he is the one looking after Heebum.
They don't know how much he fretts over me, making sure that I'm warm enough and my mood is okay...
They don't know how much he means to us and what he really does for us.
If it wasn't for Ryeowookie...
I wouldn't be as strong as I am today.
He did say that it was okay to worry but he also said that it'd be okay, because he'd be there to catch me before I had the chance to fall.