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I'm scared that everything is going to change. In forty days, a whirlwind will occur. Our cat will leave forever. My friends will not be the same friends. His love won't be the same love.
In a span of forty days, my life is going to disappear and reappear again anew. And I am so terrified of losing everything.
I do look forward to getting away. I do like the fact that I will have nothing to worry about but the quickly bronzing shade of my skin. I do want to get as close to my brother as I used to be. I do like that I won't have to look out for anyone but myself.
But I don't want to have no one there to hold me for so long. And I don't want to miss his touch.
I know I won't do anything drastic, I won't be making any life-altering decisions. But others will. I feel like this is the summer for change. And I'm not going to be here to witness it.
It's just going to take over when I get home.
In a span of forty days, my life is going to disappear and reappear again anew. And I am so terrified of losing everything.
I do look forward to getting away. I do like the fact that I will have nothing to worry about but the quickly bronzing shade of my skin. I do want to get as close to my brother as I used to be. I do like that I won't have to look out for anyone but myself.
But I don't want to have no one there to hold me for so long. And I don't want to miss his touch.
I know I won't do anything drastic, I won't be making any life-altering decisions. But others will. I feel like this is the summer for change. And I'm not going to be here to witness it.
It's just going to take over when I get home.