even though youre next to me i still feel so alone..
today i woke up..nothing unusual i guess..
i got online and saw that Ashli was online..
so i looked at her profile and saw that she made a livejournal.
and i read all of her entries..and it was weird ya know..because shes changed so much.
and im really proud of her.
she quit doing drugs, alcohol, and smoking.
i really miss her sometimes because she was one of the best friends ive ever had.
and when she cut me out of her life it really hurt because at that point in time all i really had was connor and jen.
and connors not the most trustworthy person in the world and neither is jen.
anyways..if somehow you read this ashli..i DO miss you and i miss all the time we spent together and all of the talks we had.
you definatly were the only person at that point in time who understood me completely.
and i want you to know that you did make an impact on my life.
this past year has been one long roller coaster ride full of me fucking things up.
and i hate to think back at it because i know ive hurt so many people.
whether it be from self destruction through the drugs ive done or just the things ive said to people.
i cant express to you all how sorry i really am for causing harm to you.
but for now i guess all i can say is that.
im sorry..and if i could..i would take it all back and start anew.
but i cant..and that hurts too.
i got online and saw that Ashli was online..
so i looked at her profile and saw that she made a livejournal.
and i read all of her entries..and it was weird ya know..because shes changed so much.
and im really proud of her.
she quit doing drugs, alcohol, and smoking.
i really miss her sometimes because she was one of the best friends ive ever had.
and when she cut me out of her life it really hurt because at that point in time all i really had was connor and jen.
and connors not the most trustworthy person in the world and neither is jen.
anyways..if somehow you read this ashli..i DO miss you and i miss all the time we spent together and all of the talks we had.
you definatly were the only person at that point in time who understood me completely.
and i want you to know that you did make an impact on my life.
this past year has been one long roller coaster ride full of me fucking things up.
and i hate to think back at it because i know ive hurt so many people.
whether it be from self destruction through the drugs ive done or just the things ive said to people.
i cant express to you all how sorry i really am for causing harm to you.
but for now i guess all i can say is that.
im sorry..and if i could..i would take it all back and start anew.
but i cant..and that hurts too.