uhhh
lately i've failed to come to terms with my spirituality. which is really hard. my spirituality used to be defined by the church and ritual. I left the church for numerous reasons, but i do not nessecarily think all of it is hogwash. i've only come know to realize that its important for me to define what i think is hogwash and what i think isnt. i would say im a spiritualy dead person. honesty, integrity, self-obedience, kindness, charity, honor, generousity. I used to strive to exude these qualities. when did my search for divinity become so complecant. i feel like the good things i do are just cosmetics, shit that sounds bad. but its true. hmmmm, so yeah i've been thinking about the person i want to become.
its a brand new day
its a brand new day