Sweet Sleeping Child
Well, I am at least making an effort to write something here on a semi-regular basis. I just thought I would make a note of how things are. The baby is wonderful and I wouldn't trade time with her for anything in the world. However, I must admit that the transition to being a stay at home dad has been much more difficult than anticipated. I just feel lost and find myself missing the type of work I was doing on a regular basis. I would like to make it clear that I don't miss work at the place I did though. I am far less stressed now. I just miss the social aspect of my job. I felt like I was always trying to push people to grow and learn while achieving our goals at work at a very high level. I am kinda with Kristen though. I don't believe that I have found my niche. I still have my septum piercing and others. My uncompromising appearance makes most managers squirm at least. Most don't want to give me a chance. However, I believe that I am not trying to hide who I am when I put myself out there like that. At any rate it doesn't matter now. It will be quite a while before I am more than just a stay at home dad. I had planned on going back to school and trying for a degree. Considering that I am not working, money is tight, and Kristen's work is paying for her to go to school it makes more sense for her to go. Talk about tough. We have an infant she is taking 10 credits this term and working 40-45 hours a week at work. When I look carefully at what we have built I have a sense of pride. We have worked hard and made difficult calculated decision to get where we are. Some day things will be easier. As for now we are just lucky that I could stay home with our daughter and give her the attention she deserves! I will try to post and update sooner next time. Love, simply love!