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i examined the archives in order to determine where and when it began, the falling apart of faith and words, the need to speak to you and the rest of the world
this way.
and no other really, as i was so happy then, living more than one life, having too many friends to fit into the days, feeling too much to be contained by the lines of another blank book...
but my eyes opened and wouldn't shut the moment i lost my bipolarity and discovered yours. soon after, i was filled with life and vowed to merge my selves for the betterment of us and our future, but followed by loss of that life and the birth of self-hatred - that was the end.
i will not fall into the old ways.
this way.
and no other really, as i was so happy then, living more than one life, having too many friends to fit into the days, feeling too much to be contained by the lines of another blank book...
but my eyes opened and wouldn't shut the moment i lost my bipolarity and discovered yours. soon after, i was filled with life and vowed to merge my selves for the betterment of us and our future, but followed by loss of that life and the birth of self-hatred - that was the end.
i will not fall into the old ways.